Woah! I'm walking on sunshine! :)

TEMPORARILY CLOSED

2009-10-05T12:59:00.002+08:00

TEMPORARILY CLOSED :)

Since I don't have the heart to delete this blog forever yet I don't have the time to revive this.
FOLLOW ME HERE:

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Sometimes we live.

2009-05-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

I turned 18 late October last year. It wasn't anything grand but it was definitely something worth commemorating. I only have one wish then: that this boy I really really like would like me back.
Well, I thought that it would be that night where we're going to confess our undying love for each other but it turned out I just got too drunk and turns out I'm the only one who professed. (EPIC FAIL FOR ONE SIDED LOVE) Then I learned that birthdays, bursting love and alcohol just doesn't mix that well. :|

Few months after, things settled in. ;)

Oh how I wish I could go back to the days and started being a friend than a psycho-stalker kind of girl but then again, maybe it's way better that I met someone else and rekindled old love with an old flame. But three months after that got totally burned out. :)

-- wishful thinking from a girl six months back yo! :)

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BIG DAY tomorrow.
*cross fingers*

Let me reiterate.

2009-05-15T12:34:00.000+08:00

1. I am not dismissed. (In your face! :p)
2. Don't feel sorry for me, because I am not. So I guess, you shouldn't be too. :)
3. Yes, I love him. But it doesn't work that way in this world. It should be: I love him. He loves me too. Period.
4. I am leaving because of a reason I can't disclosed. So please respect that will you?
5. I am not a no brainer. I am not even a black haired bimbo for crying out loud. :|
6. I miss you, can't wait for school.. So let's get it over with :)
7. My "new" school ain't bad at all. So you people badmouthing it, can you please stop? ;) or just turn the volume down.
8. To the people who replied to my previous entry. Thankyouverymuch. I feel loved. I feel happy and not sad at all, because you people are so great to me. So let's keep in touch, okaaaay?
9. I am still and always will be an "iska" and "comscigirl" by heart.
10. NO REGRETS :)

Traffic signs :|

2009-05-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Well, the traffic going to my "new" school is murder. I imagine, commuting everyday to and from school would be looongggg. :| On the brighter side, there are days where the traffic is bearable and commuting with a pair of uniform blouse and skirt is not so bad :) + the people are really nice :> ++ my friends are there. *so yes, hello hello :)) if you know who you are(Trop''A esp.)* +++ you know "that thing" already. Still crossing my fingers about the "thing". I will find out tomorrow :)

well, maybe the most part of the mass will find this hilarious :p

My tummy is aching and my diet is on haywire. I must get back to shape and start eating healthy. :| No more fastfood please from here on forward. (Uhh, but maybe a little. I'll eat really healthy for breakfast. I promise!ü)
Woah. Sorry for keeping out of touch. I've been on self rediscovery and it's getting along quite well. Hooray for the new and improved me. :)

I got tired of people stepping on me and thinking they can say anything, and I will be mum about it. Time to step up for myself you see :)

PS. I still miss you, every single thing about you. I won't text you anymore. I'm giving you that "space" you see, is it working? I just hope everything would turn out well. You&me, not now but maybe someday. See you really soon. I love you :-*
Uhh. Yes. I really love you :-* but the feeling is so __________ .
But I love you. K, I'll end this. iloveyoubaby :-*

PPS. It's Karen's 1stday with her new laptop. Yay! :))

PPS. (Haha. Something unrelated to my love&life..)

Hey people, I'm a budding entrepreneur. Hoho. So support the things I sell :p for my dear future. Kidding. I'm just trying to earn some money. Visit this album:
http://chizbred24.multiply.com/photos/album/231
Orders until Monday only :)) PM / text for inquiries. Thankyouverymuch.Ü

Another round

2009-05-06T09:44:00.000+08:00

Another round of word war.
Another round of useless explanations and incomprehensible answers.
Another round of heart ache and heart break.
Another round of useless text messages and mean bickerings.
Another round of wet handkerchiefs and swollen eyes.

I fell asleep again, beside my phone.
Waiting for that text that wouldn't come or
that call that ends it all. :|

Oh sheep. I messed up pretty badly. :(

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Barely alive. I love you friends :-*
A poem? Maybe. Maybe.
Just one more time. Okay? One more freaking time.
Then we call it quits or not :|

Byeeeeee! :]

T-Minus Fourdays :|

2009-05-04T21:39:00.001+08:00

I was supposed to write a really long blog entry. Just for the sake of releasing all this pent up emotions. I read from somewhere that holding things inside too much can cause cancer :| But the point is, I can't. I don't know how to write or where to start. I can't phrase what I really feel right now because one minute I'm happy then the next thing I know. I'm all EMO :|

HAHAHA. I can't believe. I typed that. :|
Okay. I do believe I typed that. LABO :3

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Mahal na mahal kita. Pero ang sakit sakit na. :|

Seriously,
I know, I deserve someone better. It isn't the end of the world.
But for three freaking years, no matter how much I hide and deny it. It's you and only you.
That means something right? Anything?

Epic "Seeing each other" once again on Friday. Just the thought of it, makes my knees grow week :|
Ayayay! PAGIBIG ♥

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PS. Ang arte lan eh. :| Hindi ko nga kasi alam ang gagawin ko. Babati ba ako? o dedma? Syet naman. :| Hindi makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip eh. :|

HAHAHA. :))

Graduating.

2009-05-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

So I was just wondering..

Does..

.true copy of grades
.transcipt
.extracurriculars participated
.seminars/symposium attended
.orgs na sinalihan.
.dame ng UNO
.contacts
.course taken
.school / university / college you graduated at..

important in finding a decent job? :|

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Wow. Life is too surreal. Now that the future is unclear :))
College Babyyyyyyy :| All over again.
Hello First Semester. New school. Same old people.
Different Experience. :|

SummerSunshine

2009-04-29T19:07:00.000+08:00

Because everything is just so random right now.
Back to bullets.

I want to grow my hair really long. :| and I'm even considering to make it straight. Rebond? No no. I will not give in to being superficial.
Anticipating for weekends but I'm ready for the epic fail or perhaps Epic Success. Again and again. So frustrating :|
The talk. (Syet. Hindi pa ako handa. Sana masabi ko na ang lahat.)
Bakit kasi hindi na lang ikaw? at hindi na lang ako? :|
Off to LB tomorrow. :) Seeyou Loves! :3

*waves*
Kakamiss lang :|

Are you happy for me?

2009-04-26T16:42:00.000+08:00

I've been contemplating if I'm going to update my featured friends or not. I know it sounds so childish but removing a so called "friend" would be a symptom of my defeat. I battled my heart out for the whole world to see, I cried endless tears and shallow sobs just for him. My theme was Me against Everybody Else. They want me to stop, I say "Let's give it more". They want me to move forward, I say "Let's stay here for awhile". They want me to forget about everything, I say "Come on! I want to relinquish every bit of memory". They want me to cut all connections, I say "No way!". Lastly, They want me to Let Go, I say "Not yet, I can still try!".

I still don't have the guts to tell the behind-the-scenes story and maybe we should keep it that way. Away from the privy eyes of people who just would not understand. :)

Then one day, it felt like an ordinary day there were no sparks, fireworks or clicks. It just happened. I can't quite explain the feeling but I think it is finally subsiding. All the heartaches and tears were reduced to half. I still believe that it will work maybe not now, not yet. But anyway, Life is tough :))

and Yes, I love you :-*
You'll always be here and maybe after another one and a half years.
Everything would be okay again. So Thankyouverymuch :))

This time, I'm going to wait ♥
But for the meantime, I'm living my life just like before, Uhh. Even better!

I just need to have that "talk" to make things official.

I'm not going to settle for the bad guys..

2009-04-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

I just woke up from a really good dream.

There was this guy..
I can't remember what he looks like but three things are for sure.
1. He lives on a dorm uphill (based on my dream)
2. He probably studies at UP (Thinking we are at the same campus)
3. He is really really hot. awesome. cute. good looking. (basta feeling ko gwapo siya!)

and we're together :)) Then we went to watch a documentary for a subject and he was just there, talking to me and I'm lost in lalaladreamland. ♥

Everything was like real. Now, I'm off to find who that boy is. Maybe I'll sleep again and try to get back where we left off. :))

Kilig pa din ako, Anuuuu ba yaaaaaan :|

How are you?

2009-04-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive, Okay?

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It's been a tough week but things are looking up :)
Notebooks are making me happy right now. Yay! 2 + 1 new ones.
I don't know what purpose they will serve. Maybe I will write random thoughts out.
Or maybe use them for school (School is so far away :| I want to go to school now! Seriously.. I love school. EPIC REALIZATION!)
But come to think of it, they are too cute for school :))

My blog entry is all washed up. I don't know why. I think I missed somebody but he doesn't misses me back. :( Stop the drama!

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Now,
How about you? How are you? :")

PS. Feel my presence. :))

Least expected..

2009-04-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of explaining myself over and over again :| MY LIFE, okay? I know you and you and yes even you are a part of it. But take note: MY LIFE / Anne Christiane R. Ronidel's life to make it clear? :( On the other hand, I'm touched that you're concern. So thankyouverymuch. :)

Of all the people I told my *sob* story. The person I thought would least appreciate it is the one who served me up with encouraging words and heartfelt support. I know you wouldn't read this but I want you to know. Thankyou :))

Another thing, just logged off from heart to heart YM conversations with Arianne. I must say, life is really something :) I'm wishing that both of us would make it all out for the best. WE CAN DO IT! :D

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I've been sneezing and wiping my nose for the most part of the day. I don't know if it's because of the endless crying or what. I looked like a kid. :| Punas dito, singa doon! :|

DAY4 = 5 Days left. Pray, Pray and Pray. :))

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In dire need of monetary kickbacks. HAHA! Seriously, I want to help my parents out. So if you have any suggestions or papers you need to work on. I can help :) Oh man, Life is tough :]

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As for you, I'm already at wit's end :[ I can't even understand myself why I put up with all your acts. :( I'm hurting just as bad as before. Then suddenly I remembered why. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU :-* That's why and I'm going to do something about it. :|

PS. Off to make an audioblog! :]

Summer

2009-04-16T17:09:00.000+08:00

Before the second semester ends, I was thinking about summer classes. Now, summer classes have started and I haven't registered for summer school. Everything went to a complete 360 degree turn :( I'm having doubts but I realize there's no more backing out.

(Uhh, actually there's still that tiny space of going back :] But I know everything would be okay. Everything!)

Actually, I don't know what's the purpose of this blog entry but anyhow. I want to say HELLO to the people who are taking summer classes. I ENVY YOU, Seriously. If I could trade places with you right now, I will.
Though, I like staying at home and having to get out once in awhile. Everything is quite different. That it all seem weird to me. It will even get weirder when Regular School starts.

*DUNDUNDUN*

All this alone time, made me realized a lot of things. Some Epic realizations and the like.

I guess, I miss you people :))
Orgmates, seeyou really soon. :( I'm sorry for flaking out on you people like this. Schoolmates. I miss the happy times. Housemates, Sorry for the "taray" act. Been a good one year of living together though. ClosestFriends*TROP'A I guess, I'll be spending a lot of time with you guys, make time for me. Special Friends, I cry. I want to see you guys and talk to you like there's no tomorrow. All you other people.. I MISS YOU!
Yes. All of you! I hope you miss me back.

and YOU! Love, you still make my heart skip a beat. You make me feel a twinge of hurt. Or a lot of it but your one text compensates the week's fatalities. All is well, I hope. :( You left me at the wrong time but I'm going to win everything back., Everything. I love you so :-*

TWO MONTHS TOPS = EPIC RETURN ♥

Just so you know

2009-04-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

One day down, three more days to go..
Or make that a week so it will be really really effective, or two whole weeks or THREE WEEKS tops. :|

I hope I can defend my stand because at the end of the day. I end up crying and missing him so much that I want to text him badly. Pathetic Anne, really pathetic! When will I move on? Uhh, I guess it's not right now but I'm better :)

One thing I've learned when it comes to relationships. Never ever memorize your boyfriend's phone number. :)) It would be really helpful when times like this comes. Seriously. :|

I love you!

2009-04-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

1. I hate you. I love you. Why do you keep pushing me away? :(
2. I dreamed of you last night, it was really really sad. For a moment, I thought that things are going to be okay but then you hugged me and said, "I'm sorry, I don't love you!"
3. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't believe in the concept of too late because you see, one and a half years is already too late but then again we made it happen.
4. Third's time the charm or the fourth time or the time after that. It doesn't matter. We're going to be together sooner or later.
5. Can you spell persistent?
6. I'm always here for you no matter what. :) You're my friend, my bestfriend. Nothing would change that. Not even you.
7. I felt like crying again, but I can't.. I don't want to.. Because I know, you are worth more than my tears.
8. You'll see that I've changed. You've changed. But deep inside we're still the same boys and girls that always fight but at the end of the day. We kissed and make up.
9. I miss you.
10. I love you! ♥

Be right back!

2009-04-08T03:51:00.000+08:00

I realized that I can't put my life on hold for you baby! :))
So while waiting for you, I'm going to have FUNNNNNN! :D

ONE STEP AT A TIME? Ü

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Save the Drama!

2009-04-06T12:45:00.000+08:00

Dear Other Self,

For the first time, I wasn't late. I wasn't even on time. I was really early :))
The "date" went on pretty well. We had lunch and a movie after. You know what bothers me?
It's nothing much really but anyway. I'll share. :))

It's those moments that we sort of switched back on being girlfriend-boyfriend. It was sweet really. :| But I'm confused. I know he doesn't want me back but heck I'm just glad we're okay. As in really okay. He occassionally teases me about a girl and I would pretend that I don't mind. He would mess my hair just to annoy me.

Then I realized, It was fun. Somehow. Nothing's too serious, we just enjoy the company of each another. One step at a time right?

I know I'm just wearing my heart on my sleeve. It's only been a week. Time would catch up on us again. I can feel it.

PS. I posted a movie ticket just so I won't forget this day
happened and it is not just a dream :))

Always & Forever,
Anne♥

Eager!

2009-04-06T12:09:00.000+08:00

YAY. Finally our "friendly" date pushed through. :))
It was really short but hands down amusing. (Oo na, kinikilig pa din ako hanngang ngayon!)
I can't wipe off the goofy grin on my face. Imagine that! (PAGBIGYAN NIYO NA AKO!)

We had lunch and then watched a movie after. Another hands down: MONSTER VS. ALIENS :)) Ang FUUUNNNNNNN lang eh. :3

Maaaaannnn, I can't wait for school to start. Hahaha!
So eager, really eager. :]

PS. Friend, thanks for the songs. Uhh, Theme song? Apologize :|
Loko ka din noh. Hahaha! I know you wouldn't read this anyway. So okay lang..
Magtitili at Magtatalon at Magtumbling :-* I love you still! :-*

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Testing!

2009-04-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

YEY! :D I'm relaunching my blog @ blogspot! This is a test post if this blog would be cross posted to blogger. :))

TEST.
TEST.
TEST.

Oh but wait, here's the blogger link.
Just in case:
http://chizbred.blogspot.com

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Before we go, you've read the entry so why not comment, a simple "Hi", "Hello!" or "Whadup" would do. :))
I miss you! Uhh, yes you stupid! :p

In short: PARAMDAM!

Guilty Pleasure.

2009-04-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

My last remaining cash just went *POOF* into thin air. :)) I promised not to buy clothes anymore but the big tarpaulin @ Maldita's (50% off SALE) tempted me to go in and just have a look see. I ended up buying new sets of sleeveless and spaggeti straps shirt, thinking it's SUMMER naman eh :D

I love sleeveless & spaggeti straps even if I have very much BIG ARMS. :)) It's comfy and cool. Bakit ba? :)) Keri naman kahit malaki ang braso ko! HAHAHA! (Ang lakas lang ng confidence! Forgive me!ü)

SUPERFICIAL lang ang dating ko eh :|

As I went to meet my mom and siblings, My mom pointed out that I shouldn't buy clothes anymore. Because I won't be needing it anymore for my next school because they have UNIFORMS. :))

Wow! When she said that, I realized that this thing isn't on the drawing board anymore but it's coming alive. :| Just making light of the situation and I'm being positive about it.
I'll just do my best and prove that what I am going to do is the right thing to do, I pretty much don't care now what others would say. Because...

I'm HAPPY though I'm nervous.
PERIOD.

PS. Maging supportive na lang kayo. Please.
K? We'll still be friends naman eh. :))
Forever and ever.

Temptation

2009-04-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

I want to open my frienster account. Just to have a look see.
But I'm afraid, I'll just be disappointed. :(

Can't wait for tomorrow. :))
Lage na lang napopostponed ang excited ko kasi :p

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PLUG: add my YM: chizbred
Thankyouverymuch! :)

Public Affair!

2009-04-05T08:52:00.000+08:00

ANSWER THIS :))
PRETTY PLEASE.
IF YOU ANSWER, I'M GOING TO ANSWER THIS ONE FOR YOU TOO :>
PARA FAIR.
CHEERS TAYO! :D
(answer first, before copying ! ! !)

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

1. I died:

2. I kissed you:

3. I lived next door to you:

4. I started smoking:

5. I stole something:

6. I was hospitalized:

7. I ran away from home:

8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:

10. Eyes:

11. Hair:

12. Family:

WOULD YOU:

13. Be my friend?

14. Keep a secret if I told you one?

15. Hold my hand?

16. Take a bullet for me?

17. Keep in touch?

18. Try and solve my problems?

19. Love me?

20. Date me?

21. Sing with me?

HAVE YOU EVER:

22. Lied to make me feel better?

23. Wanted to kiss me?

24. Wanted to kill me?

25. Broke my heart?

26. Kept something important from me?

27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

MORE:

28. Who are you?

29. Are we friends?

30. When and how did we meet?

31. Describe me in one word:

32. What was your first impression?

33. Do you still think that way about me now?

34. What reminds you of me?

35. If you could give me anything what would it be?

36. How well do you know me?

37. When's the last time you saw me?

38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

Hello baby! :)

2009-04-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'm desperate to know how you are. How things are going. I'm desperate to ask if you miss me even for just a little bit,
but you know what? I'm afraid you'd say NO. Then, I'll turn emotional again for a day or so. I'll snapped back to reality after that, I know I try too hard to get your attention. But you're worth every single bit of my time.
Sometimes, I would go to my phone's gallery and stare at our last picture together. We we're both so happy even after
we parted ways. Then I would go ask myself, why we'd end up like this? :|

Our situation is complicated, we're definitely not lovers and I'm positive we're not friends friends. There's still that
special connection between us and you can't shrugged it off.
What's weird is you try not too care too much but I can feel deep deep deep inside that you do.
We could never be the same again..

I'm holding back on what I feel about you. I don't want to surprise you or anything. I'm just taking this one step
at a time, eventually you'll come to your senses. You'll realize what you did was a big mistake, but don't worry. I'm still
here when you decide to come back. All yours.

I'm loving you from the sidelines, No hugs nor kisses.
No sweet talks nor Endearing name calling.
Just subtle acts of expression.

You know what's even harder?

I have all this love on my heart bursting to come out.
The problem is, there's no one to share but you :)

I wish you could read my blog. Maybe you'll understand my feelings more but heck, you don't care about
Multiply that much the way that I do :) I'm not opening my friendster account anymore.. It hurts too much
to see your face online. It makes me feel that you're there even if you're not.

About that girl, I have this love/hate relationship with her. Sometimes she is my friend but sometimes she becomes a threat. Don't stay too close to her okay? Uhh, don't worry. I'll be there anyway. Seeyou @ school.
I can't wait to start over :)

Oh by the way, HappyONEweek of being apart baby. :)
Man, we're going to see each other tomorrow right? Off to celebrate or what.
Our plans would push through.
*cross fingers*

Pumayag na siya (:

2009-04-04T09:42:00.000+08:00

For those who can't relate, I suggest you better read this blog entry first:
http://chizbred24.multiply.com/journal/item/354

Hahahaha. After two days, a few arguments and a lot of thorough explaining...

HE FINALLY SAID YES. :)
(Hahaha. Oha! Pumayag na siya. Hindi ako bigo man! :p)

I can't be any happier, well. I could be happier if this goes on and on!
But BLAAAAH! One step at a time okay?
I'm still adjusting to the consequences. I'm just glad that he finally hear me out, one way or another. (:
I'm happy that atleast he knows that I understand him so much and I'm here for him after all we've been through.

Can't wait for tomorrow or whenever that day would be. :}

Kelangan magpaganda! Hahaha! :)
Kras na kras kasi kita!
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I got rejected once, then twice, then thrice.
But hey, Malakas ang fighting spirit ko! :)

Three little words, I want to hear :|

2009-04-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

It's been a busy day. Inquiring on course curriculum :|
I'm quite excited to start school again but I don't know, I have to settle the things I'm going to leave behind :(

I'm going to miss everything, it's a risk but I have to do this (:

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Three things about you
1. I'm going to trade school for something/someone I really love.
2. My heart was broken by the same person twice. (Uhh, hindi nadala! :p)
3. Yes, I'm naturally curly. Dalagang Pilipina my man :p

Three things you're doing right now
1. Answering this :)
2. Waiting for a text. (I know, he will text me. I can feel it.) EDIT: He texted me. YAY! but I will not reply yet, Make him wait a little :>
3. Texting.

Three things you did yesterday
1. Bum around the house.
2. Internet.
3. Daydreamed. (So productive, right?)

Three things you want
1. My ex boyfriend.
2. Love ♥
3. A big teddy bear hug!

Three pets you want
1. Guinea Pig
2. Husky.
3. Turtle Smurtle. :3

Three of your best friends
1. Marky Baby! :p
2. Mumay.
3. Nix.

Three of your favorite family members
1. Patsy, my maldita sister.
2. Nanay, may favorite lola.
3. Mi, mom :D

Three things you drink daily
1. Water
2. Milk
3. --

Three of your favorite movies
1. Taken.
2. Princess Diaries (Haha. Disney kid still)
3. PS I love you

Three of your favorite musicians/bands
1. John Mayer.
2. Secondhand Serenade
3. Not much of a music buff.

Three of your favorite TV shows
1. CSI :D
2. OTH.
3. GossipGirl

Three of your most recent texts (who from)
1. Mumay
2. AJ
3. Mark (YAY!)

Three people you've spoken to in the past 24 hours
1. Patsy
2. Mom
3. Dad

Three songs you last heard
1. I
2. can't
3. remember

Three people you last hugged
1. Patsy
2. Nanay
3. Mark (Awww. shucks! That was last sunday pa! :()

Three things you last ate
1. Kwek-kwek
2. A piece of siomai
3. Soup

Three cities/towns you've lived in
1. Santa Rosa
2. Manila
3. Los Baños

Three places you'd like to visit
1. Paris
2. Hongkong
3. Palawan

Three things you're looking forward to
1. Hanging out with him again! :))
2. Enchanted Kingdom, or Malling tomorrow with Friends!
3. SCHOOL :p

Three of your pet peeves
1. People who breaks other people's heart. :| (BITTER!)
2. People who makes you feel left out.
3. People who makes you feel like crap.

Three reasons you last saw a doctor
1. For cancer vaccine
2. Dengue Fever :(
3. w/ my mom checkup

Three of your favorite teachers
1. Life
2. Mark
3. Friiieeends.

Three of your favorite subjects in school
1. PE :) HAHAHA!
2. CMSC subjects, uhh.. Not really..
3. GE >:D

Three things to the right of you
1. Teddy
2. Phone
3. Speakers

Three things to the left of you
1. Fan
2. Cellphone
3. Box

Three reasons you're taken (or single)
1. Breakup.
2. I'm waiting for someone.
3. It is just not our time yet. :(

Three things you like to do on the weekends
1. Go out with him.
2. Watch Monsters vs. Aliens
3. Hang out with friends.

Three things you're feeling right now
1. Full
2. Nostalgic
3. Giddy

Three things you hate
1. Gossip >.<
2. High price commodities
3. Fake friends

Three things you love
1. M ♥
2. happy faces
3. rainbow clouds

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Help Wanted!

2009-04-03T09:36:00.000+08:00

Uhh, I can't say it's officially summer vacation for me. It's so cold outside and I'm missing the brighter than sunshine feel (:

Anyway, I've been mulling over what to do this day or for the next few days while I decide if I'm going to leave or not. :| (Definitely, I'm headed to goodbye!)
Since I lost my all time favorite playing buddy, who wants to teach me or tutor me to play DoTa? Hahaha. I only know the basics and I guess it's time for me to embrace the fact that I need to get strong in playing this game one way or another. I just have to :P

Or I want to play Left4Dead, I only tried it once and I want to try it again. Come on!
Let's play (:

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PS! :) I lost some of your numbers. Text me again so I can save them :)
Please Please Please! Let's be summer texting buddies. HAHAHA (:
09276029376

PUMAYAG KA NA (:

2009-04-03T08:56:00.000+08:00

Wow. It's been five freaking days since the DUNDUNDUNDUN breakup happened. (:
and I'm okay. Well, I guess I'm okay.. I could be okay.. (I want to blog it all out but I still can't face the fact that if I typed it and posted it, it will be all too real and that I have to admit that I'm not just having a nightmare but it's the sad sad reality of life.. BLECHHH! DRAMA!)

Hahaha. My brain cells aren't working properly. All that I typed above sounds gibberish or is it just me? :3

GUESS WHAT?

I asked a freaking boy out :|
Hahahaha. It was out of the blue, and I badly wanted to catch up with this certain mister.
Then I got rejected. HAHA (: Well, he said he'll think about it.

Oh Man, PUMAYAG KA NA LANG KASI (:

Dundundun! Waiting for his text.
The anticipation is killing me. :D

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On a much brighter note, I'm playing this game right now.
CLICK HERE! It's really cool. Let's duel together!

Uhh, feeling bakasyon naman ako kahit hindi pa. I must fix papers and stuff pa :|

Forever

2009-04-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

To leave or not? (:

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I miss you! I hope I see you tomorrow or maybe
I will get to see you everyday! ♥

Happy Song (:

2009-04-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

Wow. I've been trying to write a decent blog entry about how I really feel on the past few days. But somehow, whenever I typed a full paragraph. I would click the X at the upper right side of the page. :|

I'm thinking that sharing what I've been through would just make it worse. Or the words 'Pathetic' and 'Loser' would come to your mind. I just don't need judgmental people at my side right now neither too comforting people, maybe because I want to sort it out on my own.

Uhh. Basta.. It's a long story.. I don't want this blog entry to turn all weepy (:

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PIPOL (:

Comment / Suggest a song! Anything goes just make sure it's a HAPPY SONG and not Emo/weepy/senti kind. I need a HAPPY / JOLLY / JOYFUL / Uhh, I think you're getting my point right?

A song that whenever you hear it you think of the bright sun, summer and all things happy. (: Puhleassseee! I want a HAPPY SONG, a very HAPPY ONE (:

Dance Music would be appreciated. I'm going to download it all! YAY! (:

PS. As much as possible, not a lovesong! Hehe. Alam mu na, medyo allergic ako dun ngayon eh. :D Tsaka kasi, maiingget lang ako. Hehehe!

THANKYOU MUCH (:

Back from the dead

2009-03-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK FROM THE DEAD.
AIM FOR GIRLFRIEND STATUS!

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Seryoso yan. :|

Goodbye!

2009-03-29T19:45:00.000+08:00

My heart is breaking.
My head is hurting.
I only want you, only you..

Please come back.
I will be waiting :(

Why do people always leave? :[

2009-03-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

For the better half of my morning. I was crying like there's no tomorrow. Tears won't stop falling and even if I try to reason out, to speak or to talk..No words would come out but only sobs and hiccups. :(

I am sad. I am sorry. I am frustrated.
I don't know what else to do.

I am deeply hurting. x_x

HUGS ANYONE? :(

Please Please Please.

2009-03-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

Masarap magaral! ;) pag pumapasa ka..
*BOW*

Oh please please please. Let me pass this subject and that subject.
Two more finals :|

PS. I saw my standing already. PASA AKO SA LEC ATA!!! :))
Yehey! LAB na lang :]

OneWeek++

2009-03-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

I'm hands down happy on how I did on my third exam on a certain subject. :D
I feel confident on my answers. It was bliss.. PURE BLISS :3
But the feeling didn't last long because as soon as I moved on to my next exam..
My mind went completely blank and for thirty minutes or so I stared at my test paper doing random scribbles. I can't remember the freaking crucial formula :|
I thinked really hard but it won't come out :( I studied, SERIOUSLY but then I don't know what happened. :|

*crossfingers* Maybe I'm going to be lucky and pass :|

On the brighter side of my life. I chatted with my high school classmate. I don't know but when I saw her online.. I have this sudden urge to PM her. So here's the YM convo that made my day tolerable..

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You currently appear offline to camille_barbie_klase_noh.

AnneXtiane: yo! i miss you!
camille_barbie_klase_noh: i miss you too chizbread
camille_barbie_klase_noh: nyeh hahaha
camille_barbie_klase_noh: anne, msta? tpos n finals?
AnneXtiane: haha. hindi pa barely alive..
AnneXtiane: what number na gamit mo?
camille_barbie_klase_noh: yun p rin... narereceive ko p rin ang mga corny mong jkes
camille_barbie_klase_noh: hahaha
camille_barbie_klase_noh: iba na ang humor mo ah
AnneXtiane: haha. eh kasi naman you're not replying kaya akala ko.. di mo narrecv..
camille_barbie_klase_noh: hehehe... natatawa nga ako eh... dati senti mga messages mo.. ngaun, parang wowowie lang eh
camille_barbie_klase_noh: hehehe
AnneXtiane: hahaha. because i'm happy na hehehe. all is well. kaya yun..
AnneXtiane: i super duper miss you lang
camille_barbie_klase_noh: awww... miss you too anne... at bkit k nman happy?
AnneXtiane: i guess, things are opening up for me. i know you're happy too. i miss the fun spirited girl i used to hang out with but now, people are just busy with college and all
camille_barbie_klase_noh: true!
camille_barbie_klase_noh: busy busyhan ang lahat
camille_barbie_klase_noh: i miss everything about high school... different pressure but simply memorable
AnneXtiane: true. but anyway, i guess we still enjoy it that way. I have to go, I still have exam tomorrow. It was nice chatting with you even for a short while.
camille_barbie_klase_noh: God bless, anne
camille_barbie_klase_noh: i miss you so much
camille_barbie_klase_noh: cge, magreply ako sau pag may load ako
camille_barbie_klase_noh: hehehe
camille_barbie_klase_noh: TC
AnneXtiane: alright. thanks. mwaaaaahhh! seeyou soon!

I miss high school! :3
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Got to go! I printed my reviewer so I won't have any excuse not to study. :))

Supernova ü

2009-03-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

Welcome my newest friend. :D I mean phone. :p

Nokia 7210 Supernova!!!

Woo. Bought it with blood and flesh. Err, jokelang! with my own hard earned money naman :D
Naiiyak naman ako sa tuwa. :| Pagbigyan na.

Anyway, I lost some of my contacts. So please please
leave a comment / personal message containing your number..

If..

a.) we're friends and we've texted each other before..
b.) we know each other but never texted. (eto na ang chance na magkateks tayoo..)
c.) you're a SCITECH high school batchmate :D
d.) you're an LB Friiieeend!
e.) you're a CPS pips / orgmate
f.) we're superfriends!
g.) you don't belong to any of the above category. Who cares? PM / Comment your number anyway. :)) para masaya.

OR..

Text me @ 09276029376
(pakilala kayo ha? :D)
Yey. Thankyou! :))

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PS. Pa-autoload kayo sakin. Haha.
Text niyo lang ako. (shameless plugging!)

STAKES ARE HIGH..

2009-03-22T10:14:00.000+08:00

I've been constantly forcing myself to study my ass off way before the day of the exams. I do. BUT..One moment, I'm at the foot of my bed with my readings, handouts and workbooks piled comfortably over me. The next thing I know, I'm snoring to dreamland. :|
It is inevitable. I've been spending more hours sleeping than studying. Then, whenever I wake up at the middle of the night to regain my composure. I will study again and doze off. :(

Oh man. Can't this be any worse? :|

Tomorrow's exam and the day after that are crucial.
The stakes are high..REALLY HIGH :|

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I must get back to my studying. Wish me luck. :)

PS. Thankyou Mister, for staying up late with me even if I always say that I will stay up all night but doze off when the clock strikes half past ten. :)
You never ceased to amazed me with your patience. So thankyouverymuch!

HappyThird! (again) ♥

Epiphany.

2009-03-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm headed to failure. :|

Wow. I just typed that.
It scares me a lot but I have to face reality.
Dundundun. Dundundun. Dundundun.

out of sight

2009-03-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

I'm sort of feeling weird right now. :|
In a room full of people and you only know ~~two persons.~~ Scratch that, one person because the other one is your online friend and you only met her in the flesh today. You wish that somehow you belong, that you can relate and you're not seen as from another planet..

Uhhh, damn. If I only know how to play...

I miss my LB & high school friends, I want to see you guys badly and now, things would be better :)
and together we can relate to each other.
*SIGH*

In dreams ♥

2009-03-17T10:12:00.000+08:00



		I will marry mark.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Singapore in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 2 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a orange innova.
		I will spend my days as a doctor, and live happily ever after.

It was nice that even on silly little kid games like this. We still end up together. :)
In yo face haters :|

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Th doctor part is quite impossible but hey, no harm in dreaming :p

Early Morning Madness

2009-03-17T09:27:00.000+08:00

I just got home after going to my elementary school to video my little sister's ballroom dancing performance. It was a short two minute presentation and seeing her dance in a dress and heeled shoes is nothing but NOSTALGIC :3

I used to have dances like that and what kicks my nostalgia even more, it is still the same PE/dance teacher :))
Brings back the old elementary days. :P

On the other hand, Systemone is up and I'm still contemplating if I would do summer classes or be a bum and be forever delayed on my academic career. :|

No doubt on what to choose right? BUT :D
Ahhhh. Nevermind.

DOWN TO TWO MORE WEEKS :)

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PS. Jayjay! If you are reading this, we're going to be streetkids by summer so text me asap when you're alredy here at the Philippines. :) I MISS YOU! =x

Growing old..

2009-03-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

My right arm is aching like crazy :| I was vaccinated awhile ago, and it hurts.
Anyway, My saturday was okay. I bonded with my mom and little sister and it was something I haven't done for quite awhile. I've been ditching them to do some other stuff, but anyhow I'm making up to them step by step. :)

I guess, I've come back to the stage where going out with your family does not seem to be a cool thing. I mean, you tend to choose friends over family.. which is a bad thing. Ay, ang gulo ko lang eh. Like my brother, who doesn't want to go out with us because he'd rather play DoTa. (the evils of DoTa! :p kidding!) But then, I realized that I need to really spend time with them more. As in :( I'm growing old and they're growing old. I hate that fact that one day, things would change because I am not yet ready to face that.

I'm getting teary eyed again after watching this drama show. :(
Bakit ba ang emosyonal ko? :|

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D-Day is just around the corner, and the anxiety is getting to me. :(
It is down to two more weeks and I'm getting crazy. I hope I pass my subjects with Uhh, FLYING COLORS :D

Di ba? Di ba? Magaral tayo ng mabuti :D

PS. Natuwa ako sa picture namin ni Renee :]

Hehehe. :))

Begin the countdown :|

2009-03-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

THREE FREAKING WEEKS

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Now, can you feel my pain? Because now all those absences and laziness has come to haunt you down and shoot you dead. This is going to be a murderous end of semester and how I wish I could skip all the anticipation and proceed to summer break.

Maybe if I become really nice they'll grant me that :>

GOODLUCK EVERYONE! :D

and for those lucky people whose summer break is already starting :| I HATE YOU! :))

Kidding. Just wait and it will be my turn :>

HAVE FUN NOW AND BE MERRY :))

Dear old flame,

2009-03-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

I've been travelling to-from school without any particular reason. This week whenever I have long breaks or classes are dismissed early. I contemplate on to do things around campus like study my ass off or go home to our house back here at the city. The latter always wins.
I don't really know why but I always find comfort in our home even if I have to endure a twohour long max commute back to school. :|

Speaking of commute, I need to sleep now. Because I need to go at 5am to be on time on my 7am class. I wish traffic wouldn't be murder.

On a happier and less murderous note, My day was somewhat okay. :) I'm really missing on a lot of things and I'm going through emotional state for a few minutes but then I snapped by reality. THREE FREAKING WEEKS PEOPLE.

Begin the countdown. I can't bear the tension because it's going to be a do or die battle on my academics. I'm ready for it :)

Thankyou to that certain mister who went to visit me today. Even if you are still aching from the pain.. :") Hope you feel better now.

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I dreamed of an old flame last night. What's weird is we are chatting right now thru facebook. (The wonders of facebook!) What's even weirder is we're talking again like the good old times. well, sort of. :D

GOODNIGHT AGAIN XD
Let's dream of old love and flames. :))

late for school.

2009-03-10T08:42:00.001+08:00

My class is on 10am this morning yet I am still typing this blog.
I can't help it. :| It's an epidemic.

I don't want to go back yet because my lola would be left alone. Our maid is AWOL :|
TSK.

Hello classes. Tayo'y magaral ng mabuti at wag sanang tamarin.
THREE FREAKING WEEKS pa :))

Off we go..

2009-03-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

I'm exhausted. :| But my day is awesome, somehow. I visited a certain mister's school. :) It was fun experiencing things they normally do. Even if this certain mister hesitated to eat at a karinderia because of me. Come on, lo and behold I can be a karinderia type of person. Wala naman arte arte dun eh :P Eto talaga.. Seeing old high school classmates and friends are even better. The hug exchange is enough to make me last through the day. :D

Well, ALMOST.

The truth struck me that I have approximately less than three weeks left before the school year ends. I can't even imagine on how the final exams, laboratory exercises, unfinished lectures and projects would fit on the span of THREE FREAKING WEEKS. :|
Remembering also that my academic future is still hazy :( and I don't know what to do. WAAA. Cure my laziness or heal my troubled mind and heart(?).

What a mess.
I must go to sleep now because I still have classes tomorrow. :| and I'm still at home.
I am positive that it is still not too late to turn things around.
*crossfingers*

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Uhhhh. One more thing. I just want to post this.
Just something that made my day. Oh yes, we're friends again.
Better and brighter duo :D

He is sick right now. :( It sucks to be unwell..
then I remembered that most of my classmates got the chicken pox. :|
Sana di ako mahawa, patay ako pag nangyari nun.
In critical times like this, I can't afford to be sick. :)

GOODNIGHT.
KNOCK OUT NA AKO. :D

Because she deserves it..

2009-03-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

We never really hit it off, not until we become classmates during second year high school. I don't really like her that much since she's a part of this small clique that I'm not really fond of. (Oh yes, Typical High School!) No offense. But because of some unexplainable fate, I found myself hanging out with her group of friends. It didn't really end there and we didn't move on to happily ever after best buds. Nonetheless, I MET HER :)

Fastforward through third year highschool. We become classmates again. That's when I can say that we hang out often. We tried to keep in touch with our friends during secondyear but things drifted apart. We made our own clique. (e.g. we made new friends..)
We experienced our own ups and down. We discovered things and facts about each other.

She's never the maarte type of person. She's simple and easy to talk to. She likes music a lot and EMO songs are top on her list. We are really different, but BASKETBALL brought us closer together. She plays good basketball. We played a lot. We are even TWO-TIME 2 BALL COMPETITION CHAMPION (Ay, yabang na! HAHA)

We have our own takaw moment. We pig out a lot. ('oo') HELLO ANG BABOY NATIN!
She was there when I went through my happy and tough times. My inuman sessions. Ehem. Ehem :P

She's my ever reliable playmate pagdating sa OL games from O2jam to Freestyle. My YM buddy and a whole lot more..

Now things are different, we are far apart but it doesn't matter. We still keep in touch. We update each other on what is happening on our lives. We made new friends but it will not replace the OLD ONES? Right?

(Ayy, syempre teary-eyed na ako with all this drama.. Oh well papel!)

Without further ado, I want to greet you a very
HAPPY HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY RACHELLE ANNE M. CARASCO!

Legal ka na din! :) Let's celebrate. Two more years and we will be graduating. Though, feeling ko mauuna ka sakin. Salamat sa lahat. Salamat sa pagpapakopya mo sakin and saving me and picking me up from all my kalokohan and sa aking pagiyak.
YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEED YOU AND I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! :D
Naks. BONDING NEXT TIME? :)

I MISS YOU!

PS. Ninakaw ko yung picture sa fs mo kasi I can't seem to find a picture na tayong dalawa lang. Kamusta naman yun di ba? :) PICTURE PICTURE NEXT TIME. :D

Mumay♥Anne
(Ang tibo lang eh :p)

HOLD ON

2009-03-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

Awhile ago, I talked with my orgmates of possible jobs I could take when I graduate. (which is quite a looonggg way ahead but nevertheless thinking about it somehow serves as an inspiration that I could move forward my current state..)
The thought of programming after school is :|
Seriously. I can't bear a minute of programming anymore. HAHA.
So we figured out that we'll build our own company one way or another or if things backfired.. I could be an EA (haha!), a clerk or a person who sorts outs paper.

Life is cruel indeed.

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CMSC21 exam tomorrow.
I must study. Hold on. :)

Slack off..

2009-03-02T15:32:00.000+08:00

(via wordboner)

My needy self is crawling out again.
It is hard waiting for that text that you know would arrive sooner or later but the thing is you can't wait.
I WANT IT NOW :))

I love the weekends and I loathe the weekdays.
Back to school again everyone. Can't wait for summer. :|
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GOOD MORNING :]

2009-03-02T08:12:00.000+08:00

It's a GOOD MORNING because..

1. Waking up with 15 unread messages from your phone. Including a good morning message from someone really special is priceless. It makes my heart beat twice as fast withstanding the cold morning with the warm feeling inside :>
2. Recounting yesterday's events and playing things on your mind all over again (: It doesn't matter if you just spend little time but what counts is you're TOGETHER (:
3. Watching BRIDE WARS. Finally. Thinking that he wouldn't like the movie but unexpectedly he will be the one who would shush you when you try talking to him in between the movie. "Saglit lang, tapusin lang natin yung part na 'to. Maganda eh" is priceless. HAHAHA :P

4.Having breakfast with your parents and talking about mundane stuff is something I missed very much whenever I'm at LB. Weekdays should always be like this but then again, I'm two hours away from home :( Hello UPLB, can't you be any farther? :|
5. Watching Mr.&Ms. Starsci on Youtube. The beauty and brains pageant of your old high school and realizing how far they've gone. From the shabby grounds to the SM Event Center. Level up talaga! :P I miss high school. I miss this kind of events. Less stress. More fun. :]

GOODMORNING :))

POWER HUGS =))

2009-02-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

I tend to get headaches whenever I eat that 25 pesos worth of siomai. But it tastes so good :|
Then again, it is not worth the pain. My head is throbbing really badly and I need to start on my paperworks, if I don't want to get buried alive again :(

(PERO TINATAMAD AKO :| HAHA. FIGHT OFF THE LAZINESS ANNE, YOU CAN DO IT! YOU CAN WIN :D)

The semester is about to be over and I've been thinking a lot. :)
Walalang. Basta..

On the very bright side, I watched "You changed my Life"..

Sige na, pagbigyan mo na ako. I need to lighten up, to chill and relax..
So yeah. It was good :D It made my day.
*POWER HUGS AND KISSES* anyone? =))

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the days.

2009-02-24T09:58:00.001+08:00

NAIIYAK AKO :(

But I don't know why.
Sometimes I look back and think that before days are much simpler but now,
I don't know if I tend to complicate things or the world is just plain complicated. :|

Now, tell me that BAKASYON na. Please. :)
I really need it.

The nagging feeling of saying goodbye is inevitable. Please, let's not reach to the point of making hard decisions and regretting. I can't bear this anymore. Seriously. I'm an inch away from cracking up.

Hold on. Touch my hand. Hug me tighter.

I will be okay probably :)

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Segway lang. I don't feel good right now.
Thoughts are jumbled inside my head. I think I need assurance. :D

saving up for my wedding day ♥

2009-02-21T11:30:00.001+08:00

..or for a house, a car, future kids, around-the-world trip or for my FUTURE =)) but I'll stick to the saving money for my wedding scheme. It sounds sappy enough. :)) Anyway,

MEET ORANGE
(the cow)

He is this huge coinbank that I've bought last Tuesday. As of now, he is filled with five centavos, ten centavos, a few pesos and bills but mostly of centavos =)) HAHA. This is my desperate attempt to save up money for future needs. (Uhh, yeah. Like a wedding! I wish that would still be 10years from now♥ Still hung over by VDAY=HATE DAY turn HAPPYDAY)
He is seriously really big and fat. YAY! I hope to fill it up by the end of the year. *crossfingers*

HAHAHA :)) MASAYA.
One happy kid still ♥

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Spending time with you is EPIC. :))
No matter how short it is but you still dazzle me with your stories, your laugh, your everything. Thankyou still for being part of my life AGAIN ♥

This is great love ♥

2009-02-13T05:39:00.000+08:00

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Ang sad look ng mga sisses. habang hinihintay ang mga Brods. :)
Still, gorgeous pa din :) EHEM. EHEM. :D

Ooohhh. CAKE :)

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Sisses' ultimate surprise kagabe. Ang cool lang eh. :)) Buti naman at nasurprise ang mga Brods kahit papano. YEY! :D Masaya. I miss bonding with you guys! :)

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I'm happy. I really am. I'm glad we're like this, better and closer than before. Let's keep it up, because what we have right now is more than enough :)
Even if I wish that this 'thing' started earlier but what the heck, it is still not too late.
Thankyou Friend! :D

HAPPY ARAW NG MGA PUSO
♥

Up, up and away

2009-02-11T04:54:00.000+08:00

Whenever I feel down.
I look at my phone's wallpaper and then *POOF*
I'll be smiling like crazy :D

Thankyouverymuch for having that effect on me :)
Always and forever ♥

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Lalala. Sana weekends na, pero hindi dahil VDAY :)
Hmmmm. I just don't like weekdays the way I used to.Ü

Awwwwww...
Happy Valentines Guys :)

Stresstabs ii

2009-02-09T06:46:00.000+08:00

// tired; stressed out; exhausted; fatigued; dog tired; weary; worn out; wiped out; bedraggled; ready to drop; zonked out. //

Wow. Weekends passed by so fast. :| I am yet again, buried by papers, assignments and extra-curriculars. :(
I never learned the concept of 'time management'.

KILL ME NOW. :)

On the brighter side,
I am happy :) the way things are going are great. Thankyouverymuch for your love and understanding. We've come so far yet we're still here. Even if we have to start all over again. It's okay. Because if given another chance, I would still pick you over and over again.
Mushiness consumes me. ♥

Summertime beybeh =)) I need you..
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I may be out of sight, I may never be there but deep in my heart.
I hope you feel my presence and my ever wondering love in the air.

Oh Syet, Valentines na. :)
I will survive! :D

I miss a lot of people and I miss out on a lot of things.
I shall have my moment. Sometime. Someday. :)

DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT

2009-02-05T04:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was almost perfect :)

..If only I arrived on time to see his performance. But NO! Cruel fate. As I stepped on the gym, the music ended. Five minutes earlier would have been better :(
When am I going to see you dance again? *curious*

Back to Reality..
One more schoolday and I'm off for the weekend. Hello Febfair. Hello Life. Hello Love. Hello summer(classes)! :)
Am I asking too much? A few months to go :D

Best Buds

2009-02-01T08:16:00.000+08:00

For the record it's one and a half years ago when we decided to stopped being friends. No talks/texts/greetings at all. Just going on with our lives like before, it was hard. I lost my guru in online-lan gaming (Hail to you when you play Dota!), I lost my confidante who wouldn't get mad at me when I start whining, I lost my partner in crime and my tell-all friend, and most especially I lost a friend who I thought would be there FOREVER! :(

It was sad, but then I realized that this is all for the better. We need air, we need space, we have different set of friends from the start and we need to devote time for them too. We couldn't be the best of friends anymore and he just can't tolerate my princesslike attitude anymore. (Err, or unprincesslike attitude)

That span of time led us to a lot of changes and I even went to the point of hating him just because he left me hanging there. I never even let him explain his side or because he didn't let me explain mine.

One time, as I was going home.. I hailed the first jeep I saw and sat at the left side. I looked at my side, Lo and behold. It was him. I panicked! We were not on speaking terms but it's too late to climb down the jeep. It was the one of the longest minutes of my life I don't know what to do. Turns out he was sleeping all along. Whew! :)

It was all too soon when time finally catched up on us. It started with random texts and stories until we decided to hang out again and talk. We strolled at the mall, making fun of people or in his part making fun of me. There were a lot of changes in him and in me. There were still those moments of dead-air that consumes our talks. There were still those petty fights we do. But there is that distinct level of maturity in him and lack of maturity on my part. My best boy bud is now a man. I thought. There is an air of man-ness in him. The boy who I tell my deepest and darkest secrets is now a MAN! WOW! =))

It was weird, during those times of catching up. I told him about my crush/es, my academics and my embarrasing moments. We would laugh hard and then he would give me "How to's": How to make my crush notice me and How this and that works. He even went to the point of saying that my current style is bulok. Boy, was I impressed. HAHAHA :))
In return, I would teased him about his taste in girls. Like his current crush got the biggest and most unproportional body. Take that :P and I would distinctly call him DUDE every now and then just to annoy him. He said that I'm sounding like a boy already. :P

I also learned a lot that day on how he really felt about me. I never thought he would be that angry to me, in scale of 1-10 (1-lowest and 10-highest) his anger meter was 11. I was shocked and dumbfounded that a person so close to me would get mad at me that bad. I started tearing up and saying sorry from all the things I've done. I've neglected him and treated him badly. He said it was okay, it's already in the past.

I got my lipgloss and did a quick gloss in my lips. He said: "Chapstick-green..Hindi pa din nagbabago" and that I know that deep down inside were still going to be friends and everythings will turn out okay. :)

Thank You!
My deepest and darkest secrets are yours to keep. :))
Haha. More bonding next time dude! :D

Masaya ang buhay, kapag comsci ka :)

2009-01-30T04:43:00.000+08:00

Mahal ko naman ang comsci,
sana mahalin na din niya ako. Ngayon na. Please :(

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Shifting thoughts blurred my mind this week. Though, I don't have the heart to shift to another course anyway..
On the brighter side of my life:
For two years and counting, My boyfriend (Uhh yes, ACADEMICS is his name) and I have been together on and off this past semesters. Though, we're on the rocks.. I still keep hanging on that maybe our relationship would be saved and smooth sailing would come ahead of us. Oh please.

But thank you for the weekend, I can kick ass and study hopefully for an exam on monday and prepare for oral exams on CMSC21 :D

I'm still at the beginning of my journey pero hirap na ako, panu pa kaya yung middle at yung end? Haay :P

Ang mukha ng ayaw magpogram at magaral.
Jusko :P

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Ohh. HappyHappy fortysomething birthday Mi :)
I love you always. :D

Primary

2009-01-28T05:03:00.000+08:00

"Anne never ever wear sleeveless dress, it show a portion of your body weight, haha, a friendly reminder"
-romand

Thanks to that one person who opened up my eyes to reality. Haha. I'm hating you so much right now, kidding! :p (pag lang talaga ikaw, nagkaron ng taba at laman, you'll never hear the end of it! igigisa kita ng buhay friend! haha!)

Moving on, let me rant about something really superficial just this once. I am a poster kid with a title of "BRASO..can't you be any fatter?" Seriously, for a girl.. I doubt that others' arms can't be any bigger than mine. Exaggerating! I lost much weight when I was sick and depressed but my arms just seem to gain more and more weight. Why oh why? I was even able to trim down my waistline. (Hint: It's less than 27 na :p) YAY!

So that's when sleeveless shirts become my enemy. But I still love wearing them. HAHA. :)
Buti na lang, I don't resemble popeye. That would be hilarious. :|
Any tips to trim down my huge arms? will be gladly appreciated. Please and Thankyou! :D

Leaving superficial land, it doesn't matter if your thin or thick. We have different ideas for beauty. :) Right? Just remember one thing. You may have flaws, but how you present yourself is more important. It's not what others think but how you L-O-V-E yourself. TRUE!
(ayyy, gumaganon talaga ako. :p Someday, my BRASO will be smaller! HAHAHA :3)

On a sadder note, two of my exams turned out to get failing marks. I MUST STUDY HARD. MORE MORE TIME TO DEVOTE TO STUDYING IS NEEDED. :) BABAWI AKO.
My prof even commented on my paper: "I know you can do better than this. Give your best"
Uhh yes, that made me close to tears because I know I can, I am just being lazy and carefree that's why I am not able to show my inner prowess!

Off to the library to catch up with academics. :D

waiting for you.

2009-01-27T08:02:00.000+08:00

Just waiting for you to come around.
(hint: I am still happy but not all the time)

It's been like a month or so since the comeback of this and that. (and the disappearance of the thing with *BLEEP*, good thing we're back to being friends) A lot of things are quite HAPPENING =)) (If you're someone close to me then you'll probably know!)
But then, it isn't one straight path to heaven it is more of a roller coaster ride with double death loops plus a lot of twists and turns. I am not complaining, regretting or anything from the line of the first two words said. I AM JUST WAY NOT INTO THE ADJUSTING PHASE.

By all means, would someone bonked me in the head and wake me up? I need maturity talk and anti-needy girl campaign please. So there =)) Maybe just maybe things will settle but it's hard making time to do things that you wouldn't normally do before. It's plain hard to adjust and be the GIRL again. Because I'm far from being that.

Uhh, and Yes! I don't even know why I am feeling tension between that girl and I? There's nothing wrong with her but I feel the competition. It saddens me that I can't do anything about it. I AM SO FAR AWAY. :|

Also, I come as a total airhead that the deadly silence of our talks is deafening. I AM SMART. I WILL STUDY MY ASS OFF. YOU'LL SEE. Or maybe I'm just into words and not into action. Ugh.

For the whole wide world, I am sorry that I can't specifically give names and open up to you. This is as far as this thing goes for my private life. I may not share all the details, forgive me =)) I am still too overwhelmed that I can only share the minor bits and I know that some of you just don't care. So we're quits! :P

Uhh, yes! I started my own journal away from the piercing eyes of people. Or it is a scrapbook thing. Outlet :) for things, I couldn't say at the cyberworld. I must stop being dramatic and doing things.

HELLO TIME MANAGEMENT, I want to be with you again! SERIOUSLY!

Close to home

2009-01-27T07:33:00.000+08:00

You know that for the past few months I'm feeling down in the dumps. My world is currently rotating at the wrong direction. My academic life is in shambles and this is not over-acting. I often get the feeling that all I want to do is sleep until my classes are over but luckily, I don't succumbed to that thought. *shudders*
Though, I stay at the apartment most of the time thinking.
I still fight the feeling of laziness and procrastination one way or another. :)

I am bit depressed that he, of all people would be the one to discouraged me or I'm just taking it the wrong way. Maybe it is some sort of motivation. :| Uhh, Yes. Maybe it is. I WILL STUDY HARD and prove him wrong. Unleash my inner Computer Science geekiness.

On a happier note, I get to spend time with my friendly family last Sunday. A little bit of shopping therapy is all I need though that kind of burned a big hole in my wallet. Tuna for the rest of the week, I guess. :p (just for now, everything would be okay)

For a short time, I really spent the day with amusement. I sometimes regret that I have to stay in LB for 5days max and not spend weeknights with my family. Sometimes, I feel way out of place because of my absence in a week where are a lot of things are happening that are overwhelming. I felt that I should be CLOSER TO HOME.

But anyway, the brunch we shared and the day is enough to make me smile wholeheartedly. I miss you guys, I really do. Time flies by so quickly that I get lonely that I am not there to share family moments with you. :( Oh no, here we go again. Here comes the drama. So I'll cut this entry short. :)

Painting fun. Hey M, Let's do this together,
it's fun seriously =))

I am needy

2009-01-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

After one great fight with a certain someone. *PEACE NA TAYO! K?*
Realization strucked me at my weakest.

TheGOOD
- We're okay. We're trying to make things better and We sorted things out. Thankyouverymuch.
- He loves me still. *SUPER GOOD*
- I am so making up to you and I quote "The only thing that is permanent is change"
- I am somehow getting up my feet and being independent once again. The effect that you inflicted me should be gone, I can stand at my own two feet and I don't have to depend everything to you. I must accept that your world doesn't revolve me around anymore. I AM INDEPENDENT. I WILL BABY =))
- Another certain someone got my back after all. The sudden change of heart is overwhelming but I really appreciate it. It is not too late, so thank you =)) Listening to my rants and raves and being nice, talking to me and stuff. I never thought we would come to this so I will not name names. This is too much =))

TheBAD
- I cried a dozen times last night. No, It is not your fault that my heart aches when you said those things. It sort of ached in a good/bad way. So forgiven.
- I slammed the phone to think I'm the one who called in the first place but I just don't want to say unnecessary things that will break your heart, So I did the next best thing and after hanging up. I immediately texted you and said sorry profusely but then you were already asleep. Bummer :|
- I can't say things and how I feel when you are infront of me instead I can express myself through text and words that somehow you can't understand. I'm sorry. i will try to communicate my feelings better.
- I always ask you to spend time with me and you always do. But now, I face rejection because you are too busy with school and practices. Sigh. I feel unproductive that I don't get to feel that way or I am just a lazy ass after all.
- I am moody all the time. It's not even the time of the month yet, but I don't know why. Stressed out perhaps? Or things are getting to my nerves.
- I always pick fights. I don't even want to, it is partly unintentional. I want to feel loved and I want to seek your attention. I am sorry. I know it is such a pathetic way.

TheUGLY
- I AM NEEDY. :|

if I were a boy

2009-01-24T07:06:00.000+08:00

It's thirty minutes before the deadline and I'm halfway through sending my program when my computer died on me. :|
Now, I'm here at the computer shop near our house savoring the loud sounds of Dota, random cursing of players, my brother's loud rants and the usual whatnots you hear in a computer shop.

And what fascinates me even more are the kids sitting beside me playing dota and they are like only six-eight years old? Wow. Talk about being a young gamer. :}

I miss playing online and lan games. I miss my boyish self. :) Believe me, I am sort of before.

Okay, one round of counterstrike and all the good stuff.
Then, I'm off to study and kick my ass for two more exams. I promise. :D

PS: I just don't know why I can't stand to play Dota, I try to appreciate the game but then they just result in killing me aimlessly. Walang habag pag Dota na ang katapat :> or maybe I just fumble too much with all the keys to press and strategies to make. HAHA :]

Friday (:

2009-01-23T05:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO END OF THE SCHOOL WEEK, FINALLY (:
A BREATHER.

I want to blog more often but then, certain events that happened this week are better kept private. Lalalalalala. EPIC :D

2 EXAMS DOWN.
ROUND 01 - NATALO ANG MGA TAMAAAAADDDDD :(
Bumawi tayo, Magaral na ng mabuti sa susunod. Two more exams next week. Jusko. :3

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Be honest.
Tell me what you really feel..
It is hard to guess but I'm glad we're okay (:

`shrivels up and dies.

2009-01-20T03:31:00.000+08:00

You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have:

1. one weapon.
2. one song blasting on the speakers.
3. one famous person to fight alongside you.

--
1. A double edge sword would be nice + immortality. Haha. Ang daya lang eh. :p May hangover pa ako sa paglalaro ng GrandChase. :D Pero cool yun, Di ba? Di ba? :> Imagine mo naman kung naka-bow&arrow ako. Baka patay na ako wala pa rin akong tinatamaan na zombie :|

2. Disturbia ü HAHAHA. Feel ko lang cool siya. The choice of music. *shivers*

3. Clark Kent minus the Superman costume. WEE. Gwapong sidekick. Pwede. Hahaha. :))

--
HERMIT MODE :}
So if you are wondering even for a teensy bit why I am not around campus that much. Why I seldom make tambay?
Well, I am in a quest to hermithood.
A lot of things are happening and I really need to catch up.
Bond with you guys soon, k? :)

square one :|

2009-01-20T02:56:00.000+08:00

First off, CONGRATULATIONS TO THE RECENT UPCAT PASSERS. :D
HELLO BATCH 2009 :)
[though, I tell you nothing beats 2007 :> haha. bitter :p]

Now, I'm officially feeling old again. A few more years in college and I'm workbound. Hopefully. But then, is it really just a 'few' more years? I can't help but think that one wrong move and my academic career would add a few more semesters to my already delayed academic years.

Then I ask myself, WHY AM I IN UP?

I am back to square one with all the undecisiveness and lack of enthusiasm to study hard again. I am bothered that I get to feel this feeling more than once a week already. Why oh why? :<

But yes, even after all my rants and unnecessary complaints.. I am still thankful that I AM IN UP :) It is the place to be. {gumaganon? haha!}

KAILANGAN KO LANG TALAGA IAPPRECIATE ANG MGA BAGAY BAGAY.
KONTING KASIPAGAN PA AT PAGSESERYOSO BOY!

Sabaw lang talaga. Supeeerrrr. Andamae kasing exams eh :| Ang dame kailangan ipasa. Ang dame kong hindi maintindihan at masundan. Jusko! Pressure! :| KASI NAMAN EH. :>
--

drastic changes

2009-01-19T14:12:00.000+08:00

I never thought that one Christmas Break, days confined in a hospital and a week away from school could make EPIC changes again in my life and others. :)

--
This week and the week after that=BURNOUT!

The future of my academic life depends a lot on the events happening for the next two weeks. So I ask you to pray for my well being and that my 'freshman' self would emerge and help me conquer this inevitable battle of exams.

ACADS MODE ALL OVER. :|
FOCUS. FOCUS.
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE STUDYING RIGHT? :(

revived love

2009-01-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile since I watched any decent anime. :| So, yesterday night I decided to watch Lovely Complex again to appease my boredom and because I don't want to start studying yet. Boy, I miss this :) All the "kilig moments" and "away-bati" scenes.

Now I am so hung over by the series that I started downloading the ost to drown myself with all the madness of fandom it brings. :> Contemplating if I will watch the live action movie version to kill time... Hmmmm...

BUT THEN I MUST STUDY.
LOADS OF EXAMS NEXT WEEK AND THE WEEK AFTER THAT.

I DIE. :<

P.S. So would anyone recommend any anime similar to this? :)
Please and Thankyou :D

inlove siya eh ♥

2009-01-15T06:51:00.000+08:00

Girl: I love you.
Grover: I love you too...But what is love?
Girl: what?
Grover: Wha-what is love?
Girl: Uhm, love is something to do with hugs and kisses and a warm feeling inside.
Grover: Yeaaahhhh! Boy love sounds great.
Girl: Hmmm..

Yun pala yun eh. :D
Haha. Ang cute lang talaga :)
Yikeeeeee. Back to classes. :)

back to school :)

2009-01-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

After one week of extended break. I am back to school :)
Imagine that I have to catch up on a week's worth of academic duties, secure excuse slip from the infirmary-college sec, tolerate my professor's out of this world moodswings, study for upcoming exams, racked my brains to understand the previous lesson which I am clueless about and be a good old student yet again. :)

I AM GOOD AS DEAD. Stressful :|

Kelan ba kasi ang susunod na bakasyon? Naiinip na ako. :|

On the lighter side, maybe things are getting better between us or not. Still in the midst of confusion baby :)

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CMSC21 Lab na. So help me God :)

Meet the "Friends"

2009-01-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

First Impressions lasts and somehow, I felt that I should be more of what meets the eye type of girl. I just want to make a good impression and somehow, BE THE GIRL :D
If you know what I mean. :|

So there I go, searching out the potential "threats" in my land of love and whatnots. A few click here and there, and now I have all the needed information to back me up :) I thought I needed to get a feel of the competition and be on my toes. Then this got me thinking, I am "the girl" after all.
It doesn't matter if I make a good first impression to his friends. If they see me as beautiful and not plain. If they think I am smart enough or not. I don't need to please anybody. It doesn't matter what they think at all. This is me. This is real. As a song goes.. Hahaha..

Because the moment he held my hand and reassured everything. All those doubts disappeared and everything went awesome. :>

A definite breather. :>

this is the first day of the rest of our lives..

2009-01-01T11:25:00.000+08:00

Wow! It's 2009! :D
I used to believe in a superstition that whatever you do at the start of the year will be happening all through out the year.
Does it mean I will be sick all year round?
Acckkkkk! I hope not. :| I can't stand the feeling of being and sick and doing nothing (the doing nothing part, that I can tolerate! Hehe!)
Though, I am feeling much better now. :)

This might not be a bad first day of January after all. :>

On the other hand, January 1st is a not so friendly reminder that in four-five days I will be going back to school. I am feeling the chill vibe pa naman :p
Also, Christmas Break got me thinking that I have a lot of time in my hands. Yet my academic workload is still piled up into mounds of unaccomplished stuff. :| (PATAY AKO!)

I chose to watch series online and go malling than catch up on school stuff. :D
*EVIL GRIN*

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Another round of vanity and photography..
Cheers! ü

PEACE yo :)

Anne, more of a witch :p

Sisterly love or so :D

Firecrackin' at Midnight.

oOo

“They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. What they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.”
Cheers to the cheesiness && to my revived lovelife.
May all things work out.
*winkwink*

no pretentions :)

2008-12-31T14:09:00.001+08:00

(I know what you are thinking that this is the usual end of the year blog entry.. Yada yada yada...
Uhhh. Yes. I am afraid you are right. :| To cope with my lack of year end blog entry. Here you go :D) For a long time, my end of the year is composed of writing resolutions -though I never get to keep them. However, for this coming year: I won't write anything resolution related. I won't promise myself anything that would lead to disappointment in the long run. I won't expect much. Instead, I would just live 2009 at its best.
Every moment, every breath.
Each day would be a new beginning. No regrets :)

Goodbye 2008, my coming out year or I think it is.
Lots of frustrations and sad realities paired with utter happiness and sweet revelations.
I thank everyone who become a part of this year and I wish you guys to be a part of the next year, and the year after that and the year after that year. You get the point? :)

For everything. :D Cheers to another year! :D

Happy New Year everyone.
Welcome 2009 :)

(and yes, I posted the picture for goodluck. :D
red & polkadots. 8D )
*cross fingers*

out of it.

2008-12-28T16:07:00.003+08:00

This are the times when I felt like I am crying for the wrong reasons. : Because one minute you're oh so happy and the next thing you know, you're sad as a donkey.

Why does moodswings come at the wrong moment? and why does my laptop runs painstakingly slow when you're watching Gossip Girl season 2. And I'm not even talking about the pop-up that pops every few minutes or so. The world wide web is damn congested, but yeah I'm still hooked somehow. Though, there are times when you run out of things to do that no website is exciting enough to visit anymore and no social networking site is interesting enough. That you wish you're doing something better that's why you go to your comfort zone and blog anything under the sun. Am I making any sense at all? :)

Will talk to someone lateeeerrrrr. :D Please let me not fall into slumber.
*cross fingers*

Or maybe, I just miss being a kid. Young, innocent and carefree. Blowing bubbles and playing pretend. I miss my childhood days badly. : or some part of the past for the record.

I must practice taking pictures that
my face would be included in the frame.

ONE HAPPY KID :)

double take.

2008-12-26T16:35:00.001+08:00

It's Christmas break and I still haven't grasped the meaning of "PRIORITIES". I am more on the line of Procrastination and Cramming.

Okay, this day is made out of awesome. :))

theGOOD
- Deep Conversations with a certain someone made my day, err night. BOTH!!! Lalalalalala... 8D

theBAD
- I might burst like a balloon with the way things are going. I should really practice the exercise of turning my head to the left and to the right. Repeat it when someone offers you FOOODDDD! I can't help it. :P

theUGLY
- dragging conversations of the same thing all over again. Please let me not be mistaken and make this 'thing' work out. D:
*double cross fingers*

PHOTOBLOG 8D

From L-R: Yves, Dad (the birthday man!! woohoo!!), Mom and Patsy.
Say Happy 43 years of living Dad. :))

Smug Icetea

Ang landi nung flipflops. Kabibili ko lang. :)
(don't mind the ugly feet D: )
It has UP etched on the straps. Universidad
ang tatak. Natuwa lang talaga ako. Masyadong
fanatic sa school eh. :D

LAST ONE:
Give me a hint on how to program this. I should use loops and repetition statements.
The zeroes corresponds to spaces:

00000100000
00002120000
00032123000
00432123400
00032123000
00002120000
00000100000

HINT lang. :) Thankyouverymuch :)

Warlly's Birthday =)

2008-12-25T08:17:00.001+08:00

I am going to ignore the fact that things just didn't go the way it was planned and I'm still stuck at the house on Christmas Day :

On the brighter side, this is one of my best year ever with lots of low, low and low points and HIGHER than HIGH comebacks.
I never imagined that things would just undergo a great comeback and things would fall into places. Truly, love is sweeter than second time around and friends would always be there forever. ♥

Maturity is the next best thing that one could have as I turned 18.
Hello LEGAL WORLD!

Old, longtime and newfound friends and dearest orgamates are for keeps =)) Definitely.
So THANKYOU for making this year worth it =))

I hope that things would keep on rolling :)

---

As we move on to the land of playing pretend and fairytale. My sister celebrated her stuff toy's 5th birthday. Complete with a makeshift piñata, lootbags, confetti, banner and a cupcake w/ matching candle. :))
She also invited some of her furry friends.

Her Banner :) Happy 5th Birthday Warlly Boy!

The Guests with their lootbags. :D
and the mess brought by the white paper confetti.

Patsy with Warlly with the Cupcake :D

Warlly the Walrus and the Birthday Cupcake!

See? The lesson I learned form her is be thankful of the little things that come your way and don't be afraid to celebrate even the most unusual happenings :))
Life is simple when you're a kid. :D
But I'm one happy child of God all the same. =))

Now, I'm back to programming and doing my problem set exercises. Yes! on Christmas Day! :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS
EVERYONE!
♥

Today

2008-12-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

..is such a total waste. :p

Hi to my much awaited Christmas Break. =)) *waves*
I so love the days when I don't have classes but the amount of work piled up for me is devastatingly many.

Ugh. Let me finish this in time or I'll be DEAD on the LINE. :D
Seriously.

Grant me this: KASIPAGAN + LOVE = HAPPY ME ♥

MasayangPaskoü
Let's all be thankful
and happy :)

EPIC YEAR :)

2008-12-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

Can you spell SLOW? :s
I've been missing in action on the world wide web because the computer is just way too slow. So I chucked the idea of surfing, blogging and uploading pictures to just watching television for the rest of the holiday break. :) or so I thought..

(Mumay & CPS pips: will upload photos as soon as I stumble to the nearest computer shop :p)

Slow as it may seem but a lot of significant things happened during the past few weeks.
EPIC HAPPENINGS, I tell you :) [ i am so going to stop using the word Epic, haha. ]

1. EPIC COMEBACK ♥
2. EPIC TURNAROUND OF THINGS
3. EPIC CHANGES

I am just a happy kid. :D

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1) BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
- It's a tie between Aicee Taguilaso and Grace Lumenario :)
Thank you guys for being there always. :)

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
- I would say: Trop'a :) and Rachelle Anne Carasco.
Longest active friends since high school. YAY!

3) NEWCOMER AWARD (coolest new friend)
- CPS PIPS :D I can't pick just one because you people are just awesome. ü

4) HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- October onwards. :D things just keep on happening. Lalalala..

5) LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- July, August, September (slacker days!)

6) BEST HOLIDAY
- Pag walang pasok. :) and SEMBREAK! halatang ayaw talaga magaral eh. :p

7) SONG FOR 2008
- Closer :) LSS.

8) BEST MOVIE FOR 2008
- Taken. Hahaha. :D Action-packed eh.

9) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE?
- I can't remember. with dormmates ata yun :)

10) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
- No costume party for me. :|

11) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
- McDo :)) omg. lage na lang eh.

12) KISS OF THE YEAR?
- HAHAHA. Speechless :">

13) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
- Patching things up with him. & talking about stuff with *bleep* :))
A breather.

14) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
- Study really really hard. ACADS MODE.

15) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
- Professing undying affection. HAHAHA.

16) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
- Gossip Girl. OTH. (marathons forever are love. I miss jayjay :[ ) I hardly get to watch television nowadays.

17) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?
- Mumay (yehey! never ako nakalimutan niyan kahit ako'y nasa kabundukan. thank you!) & Nix. (tandem talaga kayong dalawa eh. :p)

18) HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR?
- *BLEEP* :))

19) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
- turning 18. Maturity =)))

20) NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION?
- Put my plans into action ;)

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
- Hindi matulog straight. At magpuyat. :p

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- Parang wala lang din. But I will make more and hopefully, matutupad ko na. :D

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
- Yes.

What countries did you visit?
- Hello Pilipinas pa din.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
- Kasipagan definitely :))

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- October 24, 2008. Happy 18th Birthday, lots of surprises.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- Joining an organization. YAY for The CPS Triangle. :D

What was your biggest failure?
- Singko na naman. Feeling ko kasi I did not do my best. Kasi pwede ko talagang ipasa yun kung mas nageffort lang ako eh. haay. pero over and done with na yun.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
- Wala naman. :)

What was the best thing you bought?
- PHONE :)

Whose behavior merited celebration?
- kay Aicee. :D Ang sipag talaga to the max.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
- My very own.

Where did most of your money go?
- Damit & FOOOOOOODDD.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- Birthday. Slight. :) and yung times na walang pasok. :D

What song(s) will always remind you of 2008?
- Closer. Home. Haha. :)

Compared to this time last year, are you:

i.happier or sadder? -- happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? -- thinner. (yes naman!)
iii. richer or poorer? -- richer sa pagmamahal. (woah!)

What do you wish you'd done more?
- MAG-ARAL =)))

What do you wish you'd done less of?
- Hindi pumasok sa klase. :)

What was your favorite TV program?
- Gossip Girl and OTH still.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- Yes. sort of.

What was the best book you read?
- Andaming books na tumatak. I can't pick just one.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
- Ack, still not musically inclined.

What did you want and get?
- LOVE ♥

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- 18. nagcelebrate lang with special people. :)

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- No failing grades.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
- Girlish much.

What kept you sane?
- Blog. Multiply.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- Still not into the celebrity craze.

What political issue stirred you the most?
- Politics. BOO!

Who did you miss?
- Mark :)

Who was the best new person you met?
- CPS pips talaga eh. :)

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
- Second chances are possible. ü
And it's not too late to turn things around. Just try. :)

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
- Sweet daw ako? :D Hahaha. Natuwa lang ako may mga nakakaappreciate sa mga ginagawa ko. Though, I don't ask something in return pero kahit ganun. Still. I'm appreciated =))
Tsaka yung mga nagsabi na ang cool daw basahin ng blog ko. :D Thankyou.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
- Confrontation Episode.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
- I'm a happy kid all through out.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
- pagkatamad. pagkaEMO.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
- And Life is a road and I want to keep going...Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever...A Wonderful journey

Was 2008 a good year for you?
- Definitely. =))

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
- Awkward moments with *Bleep*

Where were you when 2008 began?
- Natutulog. Seryoso.

Who were you with?
- Family :)

Where will you be when 2008 ends?
- Bahay lang. Di na ako matutulog. Hahaha.

Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
- Same old people. =))

Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
- Gagawa pa lang.

What was your favorite month of 2008?
- October. This is my month :p

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008?
- Yes :(

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
- Yes but it's all good now. :">

How many concerts did you see in 2008?
- Wala. Haha. Loser eh.

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2008?
- Slight.

Do a lot of drugs in 2008?
- NO :D

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
- Sobra. :p

How much money did you spend in 2008?
- A lot. ($_$)

What was your proudest moment of 2008?
- When things go according to plan. :D

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
- professing undying love moments.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
- First semester. Papasok na ako sa klase palage at magaaral ng mabuti. :)

What are your plans for 2009?
- EPIC REMAKE :)
magaral ng mabuti at magseryoso na sa mga bagay bagay.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
- Maturity =)) di na ako selfish.

What are your wishes for the new year?
- Eveything would turn out good. and Happier moments =))

Ang haba nito. Kaya yun, thank you sa lahat ng naging parte ng taon kong eto. More sad and weepy blogs next time.

So yeah, THANKYOUVERYMUCH GUYS =))

Hermit mode again until the end of the year perhaps. =))

Day 1 ü

2008-12-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

YAY! Officially Christmas Break :D

DAY 1 :)

First, this people are made out of awesome. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year my beloved orgmates. No one can beat you in videoke-ing, Magic Card playing and CARDS! Hands down! :D

My CPS family.. Awwwww.. ü

Seeyou really soon yet I am missing YOU guys already. :3

Second, this people are more made out of awesome too. After n months not seeing each other. Here we go again. :D
When will we ever be complete? :s

I MISS YOU NIX & MUMAY.
Friends forever and ever! :)

and you know what I miss more?

THIS:

coke + sundae + fries + cheeseburger + chicken = ♥

PIGGING OUT is the best when you are with friends. :D Hindi halatang gutom ako noh? :3

DIET NO MORE D: or maybe not. :| kasi naman eh.. TAKAW!!! D:

and this:

Hindi abot tenga ang ngiti ko? :3

TIMEZONE. RACING. SHOOTING HOOPS. VIDEOKE.
I really need to practice on my arcade skills. GAME ON! :D

I hope things would get even better :)
*cross fingers*

THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS AWESOME DAY.
I LOVE YOU ♥

PS. I'll upload Christmas Party photos and Trop'A photos tomorrow. I am too sleepy and camera battery is empty :|

Anyplace but here, anyone but me.

2008-12-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

Hello. Second choice. Third choice..
...
...
...
Last choice!

I am close to tears, thanks to my emotional self kicking in. :| But then again, certain events that transpired awhile ago made me think really hard.

So I ask myself this questions:

1. Are your efforts being appreciated?
2. Is it even worth it?
3. What if "that" time never comes? and that "thing" will never be?

Answer:

1. Yes. No. Maybe. :|
2. Yes. I hope.
3. We'll see. Still hoping for the best you see.

Now please,
DON'T PUSH ME AWAY.. :|

On the brighter side, BENTAAAAA ang larawan na galing kay Kimmie. =))

Patrick Star & MajinBoo,
YOU PICK ME UP QUITE WELL WHEN I AM DOWN. =))
Thankyouverymuch. Ü

your average teenage girl.

2008-12-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

TODAY I:

1. basked in the rays of the computer for the most part of the morning. Nothing beats broadband surfing to the max :)
2. went to SM with my dad. Bonding Bonding!
3. did my little sister's homework and taught her about fractions.
4. watched Happy Tree Friends, Happy Slip & Kevin Jumba @ Youtube.
5. listened to my outdated mp3 tuned while window shopping and waiting for my dad.
6. fitted half a dozen shorts and skirts, eventually buying only one. :P Boo, my meager money bank. I must save!
7. dreamed about him :)
8. kissed my Lola a dozen times. I miss her very much.
9. loathed Pacquiao and my father said I'm such a scrooge about it, but I can't help it.
10. decided to GO FOR IT =))
11. am inlove all over again =))

P.S. I find this really amusing.

Credits to: youareremarkable.wordpress.com

The bad things in life really help you to appreciate the little things that comes :)
so THANK YOU =)) Bask in LOVE and all the GOOD STUFF =))

I'll do this often. :D

Off to pack stuff and sleep early, school starts tomorrow and exhibit opening! :p
Hooray!

Long live The CPS Triangle! :)

3 words : 8 letters..

2008-12-07T11:57:00.000+08:00

SAY IT AND IM YOURS. =))

Wow. In a few weeks Christmas Day would happen. *insert holiday cheer* Things are happening quite fast. For me, that is. Also, I can't quite comprehend that in a few more months. *POOF. Another year would be passing by: which means... Byebye *bleep*

My thoughts are scattered and until now, I'm coping with my 15unit schedule. Academics are partly my problem and the whole other lot would be my poor time management skills. :|

~~I JUST WANT THINGS TO FALL ON THE RIGHT PLACES.~~
Scratch that, I WANT THINGS TO FALL =)) Haha.

First and foremost, I am not much of a Christmas Fanatic. I am no grinch either. I heart Christmas when it is all about the birth of Jesus Christ. :> On the other hand, Christmas this year would be different. Or I feel that it would be different.
Because:

One: A certain *bleep* would really really make me happy if he does this *bleep* but assessing our situation now, this *bleep* thing would be next to impossible.

Two: Christmas marks the near end of the year. Another year to battle with and this semester will be close to coming to an end. which now means: *Bleep* gone. Maybe for good. =((

Three: Economic crisis is still a factor. BOOO!!! I just hope that others would still have a very Merry Christmas inspite all the crisis our country is enduring =))

Four: I thought that this "thing" that *Bleep* did would be a good thing. BUT: It isn't. It makes things a little bit more unclear for me atleast. But maybe, I still haven't seen the goodness of this "thing". So I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best that this "thing" would favor me. Oh please. Jealousy is overwhelming. Tsk.

Five: I want *Bleep* to say the title and address it to me. =)) I wish. Hahaha.

Seriously, Number 5 would be. I want people close and not so close to me to be able to say it to me. Because things doesn't always work out the way we want to. It sucks feeling you're down into the dumps and sad to the bones.

Because certain things left unspoken would seriously bad for you in the long run.
Trust me.

I admit that I'm the type of person that doesn't want to feel alone even for a short period of time. I am quite clingy. Which also means, I hate walking alone to and from classes because I feel a little weird. Except for the few times I want to be emotional and I want to think things out.

So I'm feeling a wee bit embarrass about proclaiming my so called feelings at the moment. So bear with me now. =))
Sometimes you have to admit, it gets pretty lonely. Not really the feeling you should be having near Christmas time.

So that's when "that" feeling steps in. =))

Now, can you guess the title of this blog entry? =))

'tis the season.

2008-12-07T07:01:00.000+08:00

1. I am still sick and coughing.
2. Split Second High School = FUN FUN FUN =))
3. uploaded SplitSecond photos. HERE:)
4. Long time no decent blog yet. :p
5. ANNIVWEEK next week. YEHEY! which also means more work & busy busy. =))
6. maybe this time, maybe =)) *cross fingers*
7. December 7, 2008 - Haberdey Ate Nata :)
8. Pacquiao vs delaHoya, i guess almost everyone is watching.
9. All in this semester, if you know what I mean. :|
10. GLOBEtrotting *ehem ehem* =))
11. TAKEN -- best movie at the moment. Haha. Looking forward to more movie marathon
sessions with you guys. (CPS pipol)
12. Piles of homework waiting. >_<
13. The satisfaction of finishing an exercise is awesome. with a few help, Thank you! I must really study now. :s
14. Wishlist =)) and Christmas Vacation in just a few weeks.
15. Time to take my plan into FULL ACTION =))

Okay. I'll stop with the sabaw blogging. =))

I leave you with this:
Click Click for a larger view!

Credits to: http://www.holytaco.com/santas-gmail-account

Stalling.

2008-11-30T03:22:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to be reading a chunk of handouts for a 45 item quiz on Tuesday. I should be reviewing CMSC11 for an exercise on CMSC21 on Wednesday. I should also be studying notes for possible ambush from terror professors. You'll never know. :D Busy busy month for moi, so I need all the time I could get. CrammedMode!!! && Less SocialLife!!!

But here I am, stalling :>

EXTRA: SPACE FILLER! :D

1. Hinahanap-hanap mo ba yung crush mo 'pag wala siya?
-- Ay. Hindi noh. HINDI TALAGA. Ako maghahanap? HINDI nga sabe eh. :>

Whatalie.

2. Naiinis ka ba kung laging may nanggugulo sa'yo?
-- Depende. Pag sumobra ka na. Hindi na tayo bati. :P

3. Sa tingin mo friendship never dies?
-- Yesss. It fades awaaaay. :<

4. Ano mas gusto mo, close kayo ng crush mo o hindi? Bakit?
-- CLOSEnaCLOSE. :> ASA PA EH! para masaya. :>

5. Nakakainis ba yung epal, papansin na mayabang pa?
-- Si anu ba yan? Hahaha. Syempre. :p

6. Kakainis ba ang isang tao na aakbay na 'di mo ka-close?
-- Awkward kaya. Pwede wag na lang.

7. Sino ang pinakaayaw mo sa mundo? Bakit?
-- Ugh. Marami. Haha. I hate too many people.

8. What's the worst thing that happened to you yesterday?
-- No text from *bleep* happens everyday. :<

9. Do you have a best friend?
-- YESSS! :D

10. Inaantok ka na ba?
-- Medyo. It's gloomy day today :<

11. Marami na bang nakakaalam na crush mo ang crush mo? Sinu-sino?
-- hello whole wide world and world wide web. Ehhh. kasi naman, me and my stupid mouth :")

12. Alam ba ng crush mo na crush mo siya? Paano mo nasabi?
-- Ehem. Ehem. Ehem. It shows. :>

13. Bakit mo ba naging crush yung crush mo?
-- Hala. :> MABAIT SIYA. Peroooo. Bastaaaa...

14. Gwapo o maganda ba crush mo?
-- Ako pa tinanung mo eh. YESS! :")

15. Mabait ba crush mo?
-- SuperduperYESS!

16. Ilan na friends mo?
-- Binibilang pa ba yun?

17. Lahat ba sila may communication ka pa rin ba?
-- Fading away. Pero I'm trying to reconnect.

18. Ano wish mo bago mag-end itong school year?
-- Sana lahat ng wishes ko magkatotoo. :>

19. Sa tingin mo, may chance bang ligawan ka ng crush mo? Bakit o bakit wala?
-- Woah! ASA naman. :> Kasi, ganito yun. He doesn't like me. BOOO!

20. 'Pag nanligaw ba yung crush mo may chance na maging kayo?
-- :> :> :> Wala kasing "US" factor eh.

21. Friends ba kayo ng crush mo?
-- YESS we are. :>

22. Napagtitiisan mo ba na magkaaway kayo ng isa mong friend?
-- Nagguilty ako.

23. Mapagkakatiwalaan ka ba?
-- I hope so. I am. :>

24. Mainitin ba ulo mo?
-- Paminsan. :)

25. Sino mas madalas mong kasama sa mga kaklase mo? Boys or girls?
-- Pareho lang. :D

26. May inspiration ka ba ngayon sa studies?
-- YESS :> :> :>

27. Ano ba gusto mo kunin sa college?
-- Kolehiyo na ako. :> Dati HRM at TOURISM! Perooo, ComputerScience is the course to be. :>

28. Bakit iyon gusto mo?
-- Masaya siya. :D

29. Dorm, apartment or condo?
-- Apartment! :)

30. May sarili ba kayong bahay sa Pilipinas?
-- YESS.

31. Taga-saan ba crush mo?
-- Somewhere out there. :> * * * * * * * * :>

32. Magka-year ba kayo? Classmates?
-- NOOO. :<

33. Alam ba ng parents mo na may crush, bf/gf o asawa ka?
-- Hahaha. OO. Crushcrush. :>

34. Sa tingin mo ba first love never dies?
-- Ugh. It dies, a painful death. :>

Puro kaartehan na lang. Hahaha. :)))

I am home.

2008-11-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

It's been four months and three days to date. I never imagined that I would be part of something big like this. -- Joining an organization.
My first semester was my darkest days, I really felt that I can't go on no more and deep inside my mind were clouded with shifting thoughts. :| Though my heart was telling me that ComputerScience is the course to be, my mind speaks otherwise.

Eventually, fate changed its course.

Today, I realized that first semester was more than just another semester that passed by my college life. It is where, epic moments of my life happened and sudden realizations come alive. I might not have come a long way through but I feel that some things fall into places. My heart is overwhelmed. :D

Failures, heartaches, madly inlove, crushes, friends, housemates and so much more EPIC EVENTS. The whole package wrapped in one semester. :)

It was a hell of a bumpy ride, ups & downs, cries but there are also laughter, joy and sweet nothings. :D

Because at the end of the day, when you're away from home. You need a family. A support system to help you cope. Maybe just maybe for now, others can't understand what I am feeling at the moment but eventually you will. You'll learn to understand.

CPS first semester orientation :)
Hindi pa ako member niyan.

Second Semester Orientation.
O kay bilis naman. :) Parang kailan lang.
Orientee lang ako.

Semender :) + Birthday! :)

Pagdating sa kainan. Hindi pahuhuli. :D
Ang gwapo ng brods. :)) Walang magrereact.

At ang ganda ng mga sisses :)) wooo! :D

At syempre. hindi mawawala ang acads mode. :D
Kaya nga ACAD ORG eh. :D

Before I end this, Major plugging:

BE NOT AFRAID :)
JOIN US.

The CPS Triangle is now accepting applicants.
(COMSCI, APHY & STAT)

Just approach any member at our beloved tambayan
3rd floor Physci Bldg.
Or simply text Ate Sarah Mae Empeño
at 09276744997

"Be a part of the family"

To my beloved brods and sisses, Thank you :) For being a part and letting me be a part
of all this. Happy 20years and let's show them what we are really made of. :D I hope to know you more and vice-versa. :)

It all makes sense to me now,
I am home.

P.S. I copied the plugging part from The CPS Triangle's website.ü
http://cps-triangle.org

Awkward reality.

2008-11-21T06:17:00.000+08:00

How come things are getting more
and more awkward?

Be still throbbing heart.

2008-11-15T15:37:00.000+08:00

Now I know, why I always end up falling face flat on the floor. On why I end up crying my eyes out at night. On why I wake up on this endless reality.

I expect too much. :(

Anyway, on the brighter side. I've learned my lesson and now making a comeback. You'll see. Let this change be for the better. :)
*cross fingers*

And when you are such a cheery and bubbly person, even when things are hopeless. You still hold on to that last shred of hope. Then insert this:

I am too hopeful, and I fall face flat on the hard floor
when things go out of the way. If you know what I mean.
then again, maybe just maybe things will fall into places.
Like the way I am falling. :)

Okay. Malabo. Malabong malabo. :)
Actually, gusto ko lang ipost ang picture ko. Sinamahan ko lang ng drama,
para may effect. Hahaha. :) Sows.

Hello Epic Second Semester. :D
help me do things I am supposed to do.

I am counting the days. Here I am waiting.
COMSCIGIRL ♥ COMSCIBOY
Epic remake :)

back-to-school.

2008-11-14T05:19:00.000+08:00

I say second semester is coming alive. This my inevitable do-or-die semester. My great comeback after all those history of failing and repeating. The events are lined up, waiting to happen. Partly, I AM HAPPY :) while the other half is scared-giddy-nervous-downright sad.
I just don't want to mess things up again. I want to make this right and worth it. :)
Because, maybe just maybe this will be my last chance to do things that I wish to do before that thing comes to an end. :|

For second semester is the epitome, this is where hopefully that thing/s will unravel and tell the whole story or maybe not. Let's just see how this/that thing/s go. :)

Okay, Basta. Malabo lang talaga ako ngayon. :| Hahaha. Pasensya na. :)

HAPPYSECONDSEMESTER AND FIRST WEEK. :)
T.G.I.Friiiiidaaaaaayyyyyyy! :D

this is the start of the rest of our lives.

2008-11-13T04:10:00.000+08:00

Una:
Hindi ibig sabihin na bumagsak ka ay hindi ka na makakahabol sa mga subjects mo. Dahil nothing is impossible, pagdating sa academics. :) Hindi ko lang lubusan na maintindihan kung bakit ang ibang tao ay gulat na gulat kapag naabutan ko/na namin sila sa mga subject nila. :( Ewan ko ba. Galengan na lang natin. :p Magaral tayo ng mabuti! :)

Pangalawa:
Mahirap palang magprerog, kahit hindi ako yung nagpprerog. Mahirap magpabalik balik at hagilapin ang guro na kailangan mo. :s Masakit sa paa, masakit sa puso.. Lalo na kung kailangan mo talaga ng slot at sasabihin na puno na.

Pangatlo:
Happy 20th Anniversary sa The CPS Triangle. :)
yehey! :) galeng galeng. galengan natin ah.

HAPPY FIRST DAY! :)
(pero parang may kulang. :| )
Ikaw? Kamusta ang FIRST DAY MO? :D

P.S. wala ako sa mood magblog, kaya taglish. Haha. :)

musing#002

2008-11-10T08:07:00.000+08:00

I've been a total wreck. 5pm call time for finalization of PS forms and I'm halfway through my units. What sucks is that I'm already #1 in the waitlist but NO! :(( you are this close yet you are so far. Cliche much. Time is running out. :|
I even mixed logging in from my multiply account to my systemone account. I'm typing my student # in the space for my multiply account and vice versa. :|

I'm hungry. :s but I will stay perched infront of the laptop until 5pm. *cross fingers*

Mom cooked lucban longganissa for dinner:

Anne: Bakit naman ang dami mong linutong longganisa?
Mom: Ayos lang yan, last na kasi yan.. ubos na..
Anne: Ah okay.
Mom: Pero bukas, meron pa ulit. Pagdating ng tatay mo.
Anne: :|

I know, I should be thankful because I have food served at our table every night. But when you're eating longanissa for some time now and now, dad brought home another bunch. :))
LONGANISSA QUEEN! :D

I just hope my dad will bring home food later for now, I'm going to eat longanissa and atsara. Yehey! Hindi din pala nakakasawa. :))

Maaga ang pasko..

2008-11-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

sa JOLLIBEE. :D

Okay. I just want to share and yeah, shameless plugging ahead. :)

Little sister reading the card. that the Jollibee staff gave her
for donating her old toys and books. :))

It comes with a pin. :) COOL!

Kaya dalhin na ang lumang laruan at libro sa pinakamalapit na
Jollibee Branch. :))

all the drama in the world.

2008-11-09T13:18:00.000+08:00

Since, I am pretty much missing in action. This is what I've been doing. :)) So here you go, postiiingggg! :))

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't tell us who it is)

1. Don't you ever think that I am not good enough? because I am. I really am.

2. I am good to you. Don't abuse me or I will kick you butt.

3. I am a changed girl. Don't misjudge me, but what the hell it is you right. Just try to know me more. Just try.

4. I can learn serious academics. I failed a lot, YES. but that doesn't mean I am a no brainer because I am smarter than you think.

5. Hey. I liked you, I liked you a lot then I un-liked you. I'm happy that we sort of settled things. But now, I think I like you, Again.

6. I sort of missed everything that happened between us. Damn you.

7. Seeing you again, doesn't make me feel butterflies in my stomach. But I still remember our good times, I just wish that it didn't end this way. So sad.

8. I'm kind of hoping you see me as more than a friend.

9. You have a boyfriend now, but you shouldn't forget about us? I thought we are friends forever!

10. Feelingero ka. Enough said.

Nine things about yourself:

1. I am a natural curly haired girl.

2. I can't pronounce the letter "S" straight.

3. I am self-conscious.

4. I sucked at Mathematics. Believe me! I guess when God showered mathematical skills, I am probably not the first in line. Maybe, I'm at the end of the line.

5. Sometimes, I play dumb so that they will stop bothering me.

6. I'm this overly bubbly and friendly girl.

7. I hate #6, I secretly wished to be MATARAY!

8. Hopeless romantic at heart.

9. Self proclaimed bookworm.

Eight ways to win your heart:

1. Talk to me often. Just talk to me, it doesn't matter if it is about mundane stuff. Just talk.

2. Be my friend, don't go all awkward with me.

3. Show that you care, really care.

4. Tell me funny-corny jokes. My weakness.

5. Let's eat together, nothing beats good food.

6. Share something about yourself, I would love to know you more.

7. Be goody, funny and just be like.. (okay, nevermind!)

8. Just be yourself we'll see.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Dumdumdumdum. You know who.

2. Computer Science?

3. Academics? are you asking me about my academics? get a life.

4. When would the thing happen? I can't wait.

5. Second semester. My sweet sweet revenge.

6. 18. 18. 18. I am feaking18yearsold. I am old.

7. The future.

Six little stupid things you want to happen to you before you die:

1. Find my one true love.

2. See a falling star and make a wish.

3. Turn me into a fairy. A real one.

4. Do a makeover! From head to toe.

5. Walk in the rain. So EMO.

6. Run like the wind.

Five turn offs:

1. isang tanong, isang sagot sort of people.

2. Conyo-pacool kids.

3. Feelingero at Feelingera.

4. People who take you for granted.

5. Dense people. Manhid to the core.

Four turn ons:

1. Plays good basketball.

2. Brains. Smarty pants.

3. A good conversationalist.

4. Funny & kwela.

Three smilies that describe your life:

1. =))

2. :s

3. XD

2 things you wish you never did:

1. Ending things that way.

2. Saying words I never meant.

One confession:

1. You just make things a little bit happier. Maybe still tomorrow, the day after that and the day after that day. You get the point? :))

Nasasabik sa'yo.

2008-11-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

I'm still wishing for a longer sembreak but then again, I also want second semester to start. I have a good feeling about this semester so let's make it right. :) *cross fingers*
My academic life is again on a rollercoaster ride. But here I am still, trying and trying. Maybe this time things would work out on my behalf.

I want to blog more but since my ever beloved computer died on me, and I can't seem to connect the laptop to the internet. SIGHS. For now, Internet shops would be my bestfriends again. :D

Seeyou all on Wednesday. 5 DAAAYYYYYYSSS na lang and the epic battle of our second semester will start :)

P.S. I guess we're back to square one, make it a ~~good semester.~~ Scratch that, let's make it an AWESOME SEMESTER. :D

pauper. :)

2008-11-04T05:17:00.000+08:00

So I'm currently refreshing, logging in and logging out of systemone. In hopes that my next log-in, the section I want to get in too would not be dissolved or rather more people would reserve in that section. Ugh. *cross fingers*
Because of my epic failure this semester, I have to manuever my way out of the tight schedule systemone has given me. Canceling subjects for that matter, transferring to sections and enduring 7am morning class. :(
Trading two subjects for one, what a sweet deal. If worse comes to worst, I might get only 15units and I might not even get my desired subject. I really need those units. I really need to catch up. :(

MAKE MY DAY :) RESERVE SLOTS @ CMSC 21 U-2L

Mall sales are my wallet's biggest enemy right now. Five shirts in one week. I am no superstar who has to change clothes every hour or so. But hey, we don't have any uniforms anyway, so is my endless splurging justifiable? and school is about a week away, allowance come to me. I need you badly. For now, I am a pauper. :) New clothes, less money. I feel guilty. :| I promise to save up :) Now, steer me away from malls and sales. :D

So I can't wait to see you. :)

this is me (before!)

2008-11-03T13:24:00.000+08:00

So I finally got my yearbook today! :) Well, I kept on delaying going back to my beloved Alma Mater because of those dreaded memories or is it just Nostalgia I'm fighting back? But this is the day, I finally came back to high school. Thankyou Nix for coming with me :)

it was worth the time.

So i fetched Nix at her school because she enrolled, and I was late for about an hour? Turtle, turtle Anne. :) It was lunch time, so we headed to SM for lunch and again, strolled around the mall. Then off we went to school, pretty much nothing has changed. I was not really accustomed on how the school looks like. then we went to see the guidance counselor to get our yearbooks. Chikas to the teachers. Hehe. We stopped by Jollibee to reminisce or so I thought that was it.

ice craze and memories perfect combination.

Nix pouting. :)

will you look at that? this is me. (before!) :)

As I browsed through the yearbook, I felt that high school was ages ago. :) I wish I studided better, and made it more worthwhile but there's no use in dwelling about the past right? and a lot have changed. The write-up goes like this:

"THINK OF HER AND WHAT YOU GET IS
A TOTAL BOOKWORM AND A PREVALENT SWEETIE.
WITH THOSE CURLY LOCKS THAT DOESN'T GET IT
STRAIGHT WITH HER LETTER "S",
THE ULTIMATE CRY BABY SINCE THE
FRESHMAN YEAR IS BOUND TO ADD UP THE
MOST REMARKABLE THING IN HER
-- HER SENSITIVITY.
LEAVE THE DREAMING TO HER, SHE'S A PERFECT PICTURE
OF A HOPELESS ROMANTIC."

After which, odd feeling creeps in.
Okay! :D so maybe not a lot have changed. :)
Same old, same old only better. :)

More photos HERE:]

Can you keep up?

2008-11-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

Wow. :) and sembreak whizzed past by me. In a week or so, I'll be going back to school.
Yay Second Semester here I come. :) (do I sound excited much? forgive me, okay. I guess I'm just happy! :D) but then again, my sembreak spelled UNPRODUCTIVITY pretty much the whole time. :s

What I did during my sembreak (still doing or otherwise done):

i. entertained endless thoughts of you know who! :) (i can't help it, kick me would you?)
ii. i actually jogged with my mom, well it was sort of brisk walking while I tailed behind. I was admiring the sky and yes, thinking of things. (the future. the present. stuff. him. her. you and I.) Sometimes I overthink, (is there such a word as overthink? hehe!)

i was never the brisk walking/ jogging type of a person. :)

ahhh. there you go, sky is the limit. :)

when stars go blue. :D
can you see the ferris wheel?

iii. subscribed to unlimited texting. :p
iv. met up with old high school friends. yeay! trop'a :) high school never ends. Lalalala...

v. got my yearbook at last. (details later!)

hello yearbook, it has been a long time. :)

vi. Been reading e-books, downloading games and fixing the blasted computer that keeps on shutting down. >_<

There you go. My sembreak at its best. :)
and yet the very best part is that we still keep in touch. :D

(now, I have to fix my tied schedule and I can't make ends meet with the time. :( please, let not that section be dissolved and give me more slots. okay? *cross fingers*)

ulterior motive.

2008-11-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

musing.

2008-10-31T16:16:00.000+08:00

ITTEKS KO BA O HINDI? :)

x x x

drugged. :)

2008-10-27T18:19:00.000+08:00

I'm on a blogging hibernation.

I have a lot of things to say and stories to tell but I don't have enough energy and enthusiasm (or I have a lot of this but I don't want to share. hehe.) to write about it.
I am selfish and I want to keep it all for myself. FOR NOW. :)

Giddy feeling starts to warm me all over me again. :D
..and how I wish this feeling would last until the very end.
If you know what I mean beacuse I am talking gibberish again.

But then again, my state of being could somehow be summed up by this song. (or maybe not.) :) I've been playing this for a dozen times now. It is on repeat, that means something.

Here you go:

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i fell
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

Woah. I'm going to sleep this off now. :)

P.S.
Mumay, I'll upload photos tomorrow. Okay? :)
Goodnight & Dream Sweet! :D

what we really do in school.

2008-10-24T09:14:00.000+08:00

I PASSED CMSC11 :)
Yehey. A breather.
I wouldn't say CMSC21 & 22, Here I come. Because it turn out bad the last time I said a thing like that.

Happy 18th to me. :) Major blog posting later.
Since, I haven't had any decent sleep yet :(